Exhaustion and Star Wars

This week I’ve felt like sleep is something other people do and I only have the scant privilege of experiencing on occasion.

tuesday

Tuesday: Everlane sweater and Sacai Luck pants.

wednesday

Wednesday: Banana Republic top and Yohji Yamamoto pants.

thursday

Thursday: Everlane top and Brass Clothing pants.

friday

Fri-yay: J Crew top and Grana jeans while drinking my favorite cocktail.

First and foremost, the cocktail in today’s photo:

Blackout Manhattan: 1 oz Rye, 1 oz Pims, 1 oz Averna – dashes of orange and walnut bitters with a dirty cherry.

I’ve made many variations of this drink. Today I used my husband’s bourbon because I’m out of Rye whisky. The “dirty cherry” is just a Bada Bing cherry, which you can get in a jar from the grocery store. It’s not one of those disgusting Maraschino cherries that taste like plastic. These are real cherries brined in syrup. Orange bitters are easy to find at most liquor stores and even some grocery stores, walnut bitters can easily be found on Amazon, which is where I got mine.

Also, I want to note that two blogs I follow had amazing posts this week:

Work from Home Wardrobe – Navel gazes and I found myself nodding: It’s as issue that aging women all deal with but rarely talk about. I want to hear from more women about this. This also had me thinking: what the hell does “aging gracefully” even mean? Discuss.

Dr It Girl  – The misogyny of minimalism – I was fist pumping about this. It’s SO TRUE.

This week I’ve feel pulled in twenty different directions. Finish shopping for the holidays, get house prepped for 2 weeks of guests, social engagements, work being… WORK and then some…

Wednesday night after dinner I was driving around to stores for a few things thinking the crowds wouldn’t be bad. Wow was I wrong. Anyway, I was standing in line at Macy’s to get a few gifts and a couple near me were also buying gifts and the woman asked if I found really soft PJs because she saw me looking in the same stacks they were. Then she and her husband were trying to figure out if they bought enough just to use a 15% off coupon and realized they didn’t so she got upset and said that holiday shopping was nothing but a racket to make people buy more junk. I smiled at that and enjoyed their bantering on the subject. She was overjoyed one minute at finding a nice present for her daughter but then cursing holiday shopping the next minute. Holiday shopping really brings out extremes in people.

Last night the hubs and I met up with a group of friends to go see Star Wars. Non-spoiler-very-generic-review: it was good, but I felt it didn’t throw the emotional punches it could have to make it great. The dialogue had me wondering if they got Lucas to write parts of it (that’s a sarcastic way of saying it felt very stilted). There was a lot of comedy in it as well that felt a little out of place – like it was trying to be a Marvel movie. In general I did enjoy it a lot and was glad I got to see it opening night. I know there are lots of people who hate movie crowds and such, but some movies really are better when you experience them with a large crowd of like-minded fans who all “AHHHHHH” and “Awwwww” and gasp and cheer at the same time. Mark Hamil does a lot of voice-over work and is famously known for his Joker voice he’s done for the Batman cartoon series for so long ( and all the video games – Arkham Asylum, etc..) so when I first heard him on screen all I could think is: the Joker is a Jedi! It took me a while to adjust and hear him as Luke Skywalker instead of waiting for a cackling laugh a la Joker style.

Wash, Rinse, Repeat

So I didn’t mean to go silent for two weeks, but I ended up being insanely busy. And when I wasn’t busy I was relishing in the few moments I had to do nothing. I did take outfit photos and looking at two weeks worth of them was really eye opening. I wear the same stuff over and over. I always knew that, but seeing it in photos really drove home the face that I don’t have a huge wardrobe at all. That’s not a bad thing. It’s simply an observation.

Mondays for the past 3 weeks. Latest photo taken today. I won’t bother writing what the items are that I wore because all of it has been worn before with one exception that I’ll get to in a bit:

Tuesdays:

Wednesdays: This is where I wear something NEW. Last Wednesday I wore a new pair of pants I got in the mail (second photo below). They are from Sacai Luck 2014 runway (I think) and fully lined solid wool beauties. Yes, the liner comes up to a funky drawstring above the waist button. It’s quirky and I like it and these pants are insanely warm and comfortable. I will be living in them this winter.

Thursdays: Oh look, both Thursdays I wore the Sacai Luck pants again. I meant it when I said I’d live in them.

Fridays:

I really do wear navy and black 90% of the time, don’t I?

Seeing these outfits like this makes me realize this blog might be pretty boring to look at for outfit photos since I tend to wear the same thing over and over.

In between these weeks have been two weekends. The first was an insane marathon of bathroom painting hell. The paint in our main bathroom was chipping and I tried sanding it off while I was unemployed, but just made a splotchy mess. It was going to take a LOT more work. I got maybe 25% of the walls cleared and then gave up. Since my relatives will be staying with us for the Christmas holiday we realized we really need to get that bathroom in shape. Saturday we scraped and sanded the rest of the walls. It took all day. The husband and I took shifts scraping and sanding while the other recovered from arms turning into jello. Sunday we sanded more (mostly to even out the spackling we’d done at 9 pm the night before) and then painted… and then cleaned. And finally at 7 pm Sunday night the bathroom was normal again and our arms had fallen off and we were exhausted and crying that we needed a weekend from our weekend. Monday I was a wreck. I didn’t bother doing my usual exercising again until Wednesday and even then my arms were screaming at me: why do you hate us! as I did chin ups.

But now at least the bathroom looks nice. Because the tile in there is awful 1950s salmon with black trim we kept the walls totally white. The grout is white in the tile so it looks somewhat decent that way. We also got a new shower head, light fixture and shower curtains. Everything is white except that awful tile and it looks nice and bright, but I feel like a vampire being blasted by the sun each morning when I get ready for work.

This past weekend I did nothing. Both days I spent lounging on the sofa playing games or catching up on anime. It snowed Saturday and neither the hubs nor I felt like doing anything and relished a well-earned break. We did get a Christmas tree last Friday night and decorated it Saturday while it snowed, but that was the extent of our sloth-like weekend of relaxation.

Black textures

monday

Monday: Everlane sweater, Brass Clothing pants, Shoe: Vince.  I don’t think I’ll ever stop wearing blue and black together. Remember the old saying that navy and black don’t go together? Well, screw that. That combination is my favorite. Anyway, wearing a new Everlane sweater since my red lux one got a big hole in it. This one feels a bit more substantial and I like the tight crop neck on it. The sweater is cropped a bit, but I like it that way. The sleeves do feel a bit long, even for a small.

tuesday

Tuesday: striped linen long sleeve tee – Yesstyle, Uniqlo pant, Land’s End cardigan. Oh hey, it’s my old favorite cardigan again that doesn’t really go with anything but I wear it with everything regardless.

wednesday

Wednesday: Everlane sweater; Yohji skirt/pant, (Girlfriend Collective workout leggings on underneath). This was my favorite and most comfortable outfit of the week. It’s hard to tell in the photos but I really liked the texture combination of the washed out black cotton sweater with the black velvet with linen trims. The suede on the Vince shoe for another texture plus. Wearing my workout leggings on the days I need to workout really helps kick my butt into doing so when I get home.

In general, I wear a lot of black in the winter months, so I think I need to change up the textures more so I don’t look like a black hole.

I didn’t take photos for Thursday (Thanksgiving) or Friday. I wore the same outfit both days and it was just jeans and a sweater. We had the hub’s immediate family over for the holiday so it was very casual and small.

Yesterday we put up our xmas lights outside. This might be the last year we do the roof line lights because the hubs is much more afraid of being on the roof than he realizes. I always have to play the psych doctor and positive-talk him through the whole thing and then give him gentle, explicit directions on how to get down.

I’m trying to up my exercise days now that I’m wearing the boot and I can’t do my barbell squats or dead lifts or weighted lunges. Ugh. I kinda failed this week, but I’ll just blame the holiday (yeah I know it’s really my own fault) and get back to it next week.

I also caved in and got Animal Crossing Pocket Camp. I can’t resist the Animal Crossing games. Pocket Camp is really cute and the graphics are amazing compared to the 3DS games. I prefer playing it on my iPad though instead of my tiny phone screen.

pocket camp

Here is my ID if anyone else plays it and wants to add more friends.

 

 

Crying (inside) for the next 4 months

This week flew by incredibly fast.

thursday

Tuesday: Sweater – Halu Maybe from Yesstyle; pants – Uniqlo; shoes – Lems.  This sweater is the best winter sweater I own. I love it. When I spread out my arms I look like a giant bat. The hubs calls this my flying squirrel sweater. The turtleneck on it is massive. It’s so long that if I unfolded it all out it would engulf my whole head and flap over my entire face – it’s that big. There’s a tie string for the turtleneck, which is actually two layers. There’s a black layer and an inner grey layer so you can wear it either way. I usually wear the gray out and tuck the tie string under. It’s a cheap, fast fashion buy from one of those huge fast fashion websites and it’s one of the best purchases I’ve ever made. I live in this sweater in winter.

tuesday

Wednesday: Shirt – Yohji Yamamoto (Everlane long sleeve tee underneath for warmth); pants – Brass Clothing; shoes – Lems. This was not a good day. I was late to work due to a dramatic story revolving the alarm clock and the husband. As a result, I was thrown off all day and felt stressed out. At least I looked nice. I took this photo right when I walked in the door so I’m covering up my ID badge I hadn’t taken off my pants yet. Everyone has to wear an ID badge because it has a fob for door access to various parts of the building. Some people have more access than others, depending on department. I’ve never worked some place like this so it’s a bit weird. I’m always afraid I’ll forget my badge each day. I try to keep it in my purse when it’s not on me so I  know where it is.

wednesday

Thursday: Everlane mock neck shirt under an Everlane cotton sweater; pants – Uniqlo; shoes – Allbirds.  This sweater is a few years old and hasn’t really aged well. It’s comfortable, but it’s very flimsy and I feel like it looks too frumpy now. I bought a new Everlane cotton sweater and got it this week. It’s the mock neck cropped one. The cotton is much more substantial so hopefully it’ll last longer without looking bad. In general, I’m finding that Everlane clothes don’t hold up over time nearly as well as I thought they would.  The tees are ok, but the sweaters have been misses so far. The red lux one I wore twice last week got a hole in it so big I can’t wear it anymore. friday

Friday: Sweater – J Crew; jeans – Grana; shoes – Frye. I really like this sweater. It’s thick and comfortable. Since I cut all my hair off I’m constantly looking at turtleneck everything to keep my neck warm. I’m not a huge scarf person so turtlenecks are my only option.

 

vince

For the next 4 months (roughly) these Vince shoes will be the only ones I wear with any and every outfit. Why?

effing boot

Because this shit is happening again. After trying to wear the soft brace for several months I’ve come to realize it’s not going to work at all and I need to wear this damn immobilization boot again. I. HATE. IT. This will be round 3 in this annoying thing.

I’m not messing around anymore and dead serious on getting the tendonitis under control. Also, I still want to punch the doctor I spent near $200 on for visits half a year ago. “Oh, you’ll only need to wear it for 3 weeks and then taper off for the 4th”. MY FUCKING ASS! People who deal with tendonitis – if you go to a doctor, then double, no – TRIPLE the amount of time they tell you to wear an immobilization boot. It’s the strongest tendon in the body and it also takes the longest time to heal of any other tendon in the body.

I’ve read ALL the things about tendonitis I can find online and message boards and everyone says the same thing: most doctors underestimate the healing time. Also, most of them don’t give patients a good idea of how long to do recovery exercises (let alone what kinds they should be doing) BEFORE they can start their regular exercising again. This is how my condition became chronic and I’m sick of it. I was never given a proper gage for when I should do certain activities so I wouldn’t risk tearing the tendon again.

So outfits be fugly for the next 4 months because I’ll be wearing this boot, but whatever. I want to run again.

First week

My new job will be quite taxing and busy, but I’m ok with that. The company culture is friendly, but strained because there are many departments that don’t talk to each other all that well. However, this is par for the course with a larger company. In general, I do like the people I work with, which is always a plus. The kindness shown by people willing to help out there is a breath of fresh air from the “leave me alone” sort of attitude I felt at my old job because so many people there had become complacent from being spoiled so much.

I will definitely need to work on my wardrobe a bit. I was so used to wearing anything I wanted at my old job I didn’t realize how little amount of proper business attire I actually owned.

monday

Monday: Everlane sweater and Brass Clothing ponte pants. I had on my black Lems Nine2five shoes for work but am in slippers when I got home. Although this sweater looks ok on me I’m a bit meh about it. I need to up my sweater game.

tuesday

Tuesday: J Crew sweater and Yohji Yamamoto pants with Lems shoes. It was getting rather cold in the office and I work with a pregnant woman who is always hot so I have to make sure to bring layers.

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Wednesday: Everlane sweater again and Yohji Yamamoto skirt/pants,  Lems Gobi Hi boots and 45rpm wool jacket. The scarf I crocheted myself many years ago.  I wore my workout leggings under the skirt/pants. This is the same skirt I wore to a wedding earlier this summer, but I’m wearing the skirt as pants this time. It was much easier to walk around the office this way.

When I walked in the door my husband immediately said “You look really cute today!” I was rather surprised since I hadn’t even taken my jacket off and he didn’t know what I was wearing under it. He said he liked how the jacket and skirt looked together. I teasingly said, “then take a picture” so we went out in the front yard just before the sun went down and he took these two photos. When I saw the first one I understood what he liked, “so you like this silhouette”. He agreed and said I looked very put together. I looked a little old-timey as well and I think he likes that look too. It’s the first time I’ve heard him be so vocal about my outfits, so now I’m curious what else might peak his interest.

thursday

Thursday: 45rpm long sleeve shirt, Everlane E2 pants, Lems shoes, 45 rpm wool jacket.

My standard blue and black outfit, which I gravitate to a lot.

I didn’t take a photo for Friday. It was casual day in the office so most people wore jeans and sneakers. I had on my light light blue Grana jeans and a flannel shirt, tucked in. The CEO, who is a very old man, stopped me and my supervisor, admiring our shoes. I’d worn my red Lems Primal 2 shoes and she had on some black and white patterned Nikes. He said he liked the colors, which was funny to me. I was so tired by Friday I really didn’t care too much about what I wore and looked forward to dressing down a bit.

I’d been eying a pair of Issey Miyake pants on eBay and unfortunately someone else bought them the night before I’d decided I’d get them. Now all I can think about are those pants! There is another similar pair of pants by Yohji Yamamoto on Totokaelo, but I’m not willing to drop $900 for them.

I need to work on finding a better lighting area for outfit photos. Looking at the photos overall this week – the lighting is all over the place.