Week 1 – Trial by fire

Wednesday: YY top, Rachel Comey Lure pant, Lems shoes.

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Thursday: YY top, Uniqlo pant, Jil Sander shoes.

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Friday: Top from Yesstyle (Chinese vendor), Rachel Comey Menace pant, Frye shoes.

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This week has officially kicked my ass. I’m reminded of the rushed, stressed feeling from when I was first given my client accounts back in January/February, which were a mess. Everything was late and I was frantically rushing about to all the areas of the shop, constantly checking on product status.

This first week I’ve been taking over a coworker’s account while he’s on vacation and it’s the largest client account we have. Basically I’ve been tasked with taming a wild, galloping elephant and it’s getting the better of me. I knew this account was a bit of a clusterfuck to begin with, but damn…. this is beyond anything I could’ve ever imagined. Also, I don’t think my coworker anticipated any of the stuff I ended up encountering. He said I only had prototypes to worry about… well, the prototypes were the easiest part of what I’ve had to worry about all week. I’ve been in contact with the client rep 4-5 times every day. My boss is the only other one who knows what’s going with this client and he’s been out half the week at a conference. He’s checked in with me every day and yesterday I flat out said to him, “I’m drowning.” I was given a report from the client to work on and I was floored by how much we are backordered and what goes into all the orders we do for this client. My clients are peanuts by comparison. I’ve gotten them all under control now and have a really good rapport with them. So to be given this task with a new rep that I’m only temporarily working with has literally thrown me back into the deep end of the pool with everyone standing at the side saying, “swim, damnit!”

However, I have managed to gain a much greater respect for my senior who handles this account because it’s so insane and I’ve learned a lot of new things about how we operate and manage the work load. And I’ve been given tasks that I had no idea ever fell on my department before. I’ve had so many 5-minute-tutorials on how to change things in our system to accommodate the work load I’ve left work with my head spinning and a general sense of anxiety, wondering if what I did was correct. Even today I turned to the more seasoned employee next to me and asked if I did X, Y and Z things right that were entered the day before. I won’t say it’s been easy or the best way for me to learn this stuff, considering it’s all on the fly, but I’m gaining a much greater grasp of how I can help out.

The new admin has been great in seeing if I’m ok and even coming to me with silly things or comments just to make me smile. It’s obvious she cares and is worried about me and that makes me feel all the better about us hiring her. I’ve given her a huge task I used to handle simply because I’m so swamped I can’t take care of it now, which she will need some guidance with, but I’m sure she’ll be helpful. After seeing some of the stuff I had to deal with, even on a generally slow Friday, she said she didn’t envy me at all but is still willing to help me out whenever possible. It’s really nice having that kind of support.

The biggest thing to help me this week has been being able to run. I’ve run three times this week and getting that stress out of my system by exhausting myself physically has done wonders for me emotionally. I’m still restraining myself because I know I risk running myself into a new injury out of sheer stubbornness, but what little I’ve done has worked. Granted, I’ve got a mean case of DOMS (delayed onset muscle soreness) in my legs, but the little masochist in me is saying, “Yaaaaassssssss, my preciousss.” Once I get over the soreness, I’ll get to the strengthening part and after that the muscle memory part and then… it’s all routine and my head clears and I move mechanically – in a good way.

I thought about running tonight, but I did run a lot more than I intended to yesterday so Z told me to take it is. So… I’ve had a double of Johnny Walker Red and am about to stuff myself with grilled brats and apricots and couch potato it with more beer and watch new anime season premieres.

Panic in 3, 2, 1…

Wednesday’s outfit: New (to me, but used from TRR) Ann Demeulemeester top, Rachel Comey Menace Pant, Chinese Laundry shoes (old).

Investor visit day. My shoes are wedges I’ve shown before, but you can’t really see them much in this photo. The Quality Director was wearing wedges as well that looked almost exactly like mine. Hers were from Target, mine from DSW. I told her I wore them to my wedding and her eyes bugged out, saying, “No way!” Yes way. My wedding was super no fuss and casual. I wore a black cocktail dress that I no longer have because I weighed 20lbs more back then and the dress doesn’t fit me so I donated it.

Anyway, this was my first time wearing the Ann D shirt and it’s super soft cotton that almost clung to me too much. It’s more suited to jeans than formal wear, but I made the outfit work for me. I’m also still torn between having the pants hemmed or not. They are very long and even with the wedge there’s a lot of extra pant hanging around the bottom. I kinda like that baggy, bunched up ankle look, but I’m not sure it’s the best option for office-ness stuffs.

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Thursday: (no photo) I skipped because it was a PT day. I wore my Everlane white button down and green linen Uniqlo pants with my navy Jil Sander shoes. My boss stumbled backwards (literally because he’s a clown like that), confused because I wasn’t wearing black and commented on it. I guess I have a reputation now….  Anyway, the new admin we hired also wears black almost all the time and she thinks about things in the same way I do to a degree that is almost frightening. We laughed about that. She then said that it should be reassuring to know that she’ll get done whatever I tell her to do. I’m technically not her boss, so that was a little scary, but also slightly comforting. In any case, we get along really well and I’m glad she’s fitting in with the company.

Friday

Friday: Yohji Yamamoto day – wearing YY top and YY suit pants with Eileen Fisher shoes and obnoxious cat (Bento) in my way. Just look at the snarky glare he’s giving the camera. He’s such a turd.

I’ve been stress eating/drinking this week. Today was the last day of the investor visits. Now we see who bites – or not. We may be bought out or merged or whatever. It’s a rather frightening time, especially for the upper management. I don’t think I’ll have anything to worry about immediately, but I still don’t like the idea of losing my boss, who is VP. On top of that, the last prototype for my client is severely delayed. The engineers have been  having an insane time getting the part done right and the lab with a Super Famous Surgeon for these is due Wednesday at my client’s location, which is nowhere near here. The guys are working this weekend to get it done so I’ll be going in to work tomorrow for support. I’m not keen on the idea of just letting them work their butts off while I sit around and wait for the results. If the parts run ok this weekend then we can ship on Monday. Worst WORST case scenario, we get them done by Tuesday at the latest. If we manage to get them done that late, then guess who will most likely be on an emergency flight to the client to hand off parts and then turn around to fly back? Why? Oh well my boss will already be in another state visiting another client that day. *head**desk* This afternoon he told me to look into flights – just in case.

Never ever in a million years did I ever think I’d be working for a company that put me in these situations. This Is Not A Bad Thing. Seriously, this job is one of the best things that could’ve happened to me and while there’s a shit ton that’s wrong and messed up, there’s also a shit ton that’s amazing and fun as well – mostly the motley crew of clowns I work with. This job is the definition of bi-polar disorder. And yet… I know I can do it and handle it. It’s woken me up and made me sharper and think more clearly in many ways. Yes, it’s stressful as hell, but there’s a sense of fun even in that – for as masochistic as that sounds.

In the meantime, Bring Me All The Scotch while I freak the fuck out this weekend….

Incoming

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I could have sworn I took a photo on Monday but I guess I forgot. I’m kinda shocked I didn’t take any photos of outfits until today. I know I didn’t yesterday because I changed into workout clothes at work before driving to PT. Monday though, it’s a blur.

A lot of things are blurring together now. Even though we’re not busy at work, I’m still Busy because I’m getting many more responsibilities loaded on me. It’s kinda strange how things work out that way. We have clients coming in to the office next week so I’ll be sure to clean up my new YY suit and break that out.

With regards to today’s outfit. It’s fine, but I really think nicer looking shoes would’ve worked better. I really need to find a nice oxford/brogue to wear with my outfits. I’d hoped the Nisolo shoe would fill that, but the style and cut of it (and size) just aren’t working out so I’m going to sell those along with many other items this weekend and now I’m on the hunt for better work shoes.

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about how the majority of my wardrobe revolves around work attire now. I also want to make that wardrobe work for me no matter what day of the week. I want work clothes to be real clothes I can wear any time, not just the clothes that come off immediately after work because they are uncomfortable. The only exception will be when I’m running regularly again. Then, no matter what, I’ll be throwing off work clothes to put on clothes to run in, so maybe it doesn’t make that much of a difference?

 

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Outfits for this week thus far. Tomorrow’s photo may not be posted until I get back from vacation. Last Friday Z said after dinner, “Do you want to go somewhere?…..” which of course sounded strange and ominous, but I quickly picked up on the fact he’s burnt out a bit from work and needs a getaway stat. He’s been working the past three weeks solidly – even on weekends – because he’s been on call for projects with his clients (his company does work for non-profits, charities and political canvasing that mostly operates on the weekends).  We promptly found a house to rent way the hell out in the boondocks 3 hours north of here with next to no cellular service, a lot of trees and several lakes and waterfalls. There’s also a state park nearby with a freshwater lake that allows swimming. The next to zero cell service was key for him. He’s really sick of his phone constantly going off from clients being needy 24/7. He already booked tomorrow off his schedule, but I couldn’t so I managed to get my boss to give me a half day. The kids, aka cats in bottom photo, have already been packed away and sent off to the grandparent’s house (in-laws).

Work has been insanely busy this week. I’ve been training the new admin and dealing with clients suddenly all emailing last minute X, Y and Z things to get done before the long holiday weekend. We also had the first of three major grilling/bbq events the company hosts for all employees around the summer holidays. I thought it would be an easy week for me, but I’ve been working 9 hours days and *head*desking* over situations with clients and in-house production issues more than I’d like.

I also started PT this week on Tuesday and had another session today. It was eye-opening seeing how weak my ankle really is based on the strength and stretching tests done. Even though my copay is a joke ($50/session UGH), I am glad I’m going. While the exercises in themselves aren’t anything I couldn’t easily do at home, I don’t think I’d have the motivation to force myself to do them all otherwise.

Dressing Normie

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I wouldn’t say I dress too far out there, but I do very much skew masculine and have worn many weird proportions. Today (the photo directly above), however, made me feel like a normie, aka normal office person. I grabbed one of the company pullovers from the stock room yesterday before leaving work (covering up logo in photo). It’s a large so it is a bit big, but I’m ok with that. I think a lot of it had to do with the pants as well, which are from Uniqlo. They are meant to be office pants and super basic, which is fine. I wore an office shirt today because execs from my main client were visiting our facility. My whole morning was spent hanging out with them and giving them a tour of the building with my boss. I was very conscious the whole day of feeling like an employee while wearing this outfit and half expecting to hear someone whispering “one of ussssss”. This just made me want to run home and change all the more. I know it’s ridiculous and all in my head. I thought it would be funny to share this feeling of wearing a fake skin.

The client meeting went well, which surprised me. The operations director, who is the boss of my main contact, never gave me the impression he was an easy person to deal with based on email exchanges. I was a bit nervous and prepared to hear a bit of shaming on our part for the whole slew of late orders last month. However, that didn’t happen. In fact, he praised me quite a bit and said my constant communication really helped them know we were doing our best despite the problems we encountered. As we toured the facility we showed them the assembly section and had none of their parts there because we shipped them all out yesterday. I told him a certain product they needed was in that shipment and he high-fived me very happy about the early delivery.

The clients left and my boss took us out to lunch. Afterwards, I was right back at it in a meeting regarding a new issue on a different product from the same client. I was hoping for an easy afternoon, but this was a blatant reminder of how I’ll need to up my game with my new role.

I get my admin on Monday! Finally! And while I was riding high on the thought of having someone take care of all those little admin things I was thrown a curve ball from my boss about taking on another client account, which I thought I was going to squeak by. This new one is in fact a new “old” client who came back to us and is being super nit-picky about a whole slew of things for their current orders about to be shipped out. *head*desk* It clearly never ends….

I know this whole post is just about work, but today was a bit of a Big Day so to speak. I have a hair appointment after dinner, which I’m hoping will go well. I’m trying yet another salon because I haven’t found one that really gets me yet. Also, I may have bought a custom sized shirt from Rosen and may plan on having a suit customized from them next month because I’ll be dragged to more conferences and so I may as well brace myself now for it. Also, I don’t want to go as a normie to these events. I want to go as ME.