4 months, 1 shoe


For 4 months one shoe (right) has been on my foot and the other (left) has been in a box. Btw, the heel of the shoe above is falling off now at the very bottom layer.

I kinda knew I wanted to do a comparison post when I first bought these shoes. Ideally, I’d wear the one during boot time and then be able to wear both afterwards. That’s…. not so much something I want anymore.

I bought these shoes because of the platform on them. The shoe I wore allowed me to be evenly balanced while wearing the medical boot. I still hobbled about a bit, but at least I felt more stable being on the same walking plane.

To give an idea of just how much I relied on this shoe, here’s a breakdown of every day, including weekends:

  • Wake up, get dressed and put on shoe and boot.
  • Wear both all day at work with the exception of times I had to take off both and put on my non-slip shoes for going out on the shop floor. I tried wearing the boot once on the shop floor and terrified myself. I seriously thought I was going to fall and break both my legs.
  • Change into workout clothes on M, W, F and put back on shoe and boot to exercise in – I would take it off for doing push ups because the pointy toe end wasn’t very stable for that.
  • During evenings I’d put my feet up on the sofa or a pouf and only take off the shoe.
  • The only other time the shoe was off was during showers or at night when I’d wear a different brace to sleep in.
  • Weekends: wake up, dressed (sort of) and put on shoe and boot.
  • Again, only time I take it off when either lounging, showering or sleeping.

I lived in this shoe constantly.

Pros of this shoe:

  • It made me feel stable and more balanced.
  • It works well with the majority of my wardrobe.
  • It is easy to take on and off in a second, which is what I wanted.

Cons of this shoe:

  • The break-in period was awful. I’m not used to wearing shoes that pinch my toes together because I’d been wearing so many barefoot styled shoes beforehand. I feel as if I’ve cramped my toes together completely during these 4 months.
  • Wearing thick socks to keep my ankles warm was painful until the shoes stretched out a bit. This also goes along with the break-in period. Not good.
  • After the beginning of the second month a squeak developed in the forefoot area of the shoe and no matter what I’ve done it will not go away. The boot already sounds awful – like someone running around in a diaper due to the padding for my leg and all the velcro straps moving around. Adding a squeak to it on the other shoe has made wearing both boot and shoe highly annoying for me every. single. day. I made a joke with a coworker I’m the walking Squeaky Diaper and we laughed, but I think part of my anger and grumpiness is due to this damn squeak in the shoe.
  • It’s not great to wear in cold weather and has zero traction, just like the boot. I’m basically in ice skates during inclement weather. Big, cumbersome, annoying ice skates.
  • It’s also not warm at all, which is why I had to wear thick socks, but that just made the shoe more uncomfortable until I managed to stretch out the shoe, dealing with a lot of annoying pain in the process.
  • Expensive – I definitely got my money’s worth out of wearing the one shoe constantly, but I still feel a bit bitter about paying as much as I did for them and only wearing one out of the pair.

As I’m starting the tapering off period (FINALLY!) I don’t have much longer in this shoe and I’ve learned a few things from it.

  • I only like the look of platform shoes. I can’t wear them. I felt like I was tripping all over myself until I got used to it and it just wasn’t me. I know I’m not that tall, but I still need to be closer to the ground. I still trip over myself from time to time and it’s not the boot, it’s literally because of the shoe itself.
  • I hate break-in periods on shoes. This was a big reminder of why I’ve switched to barefoot style shoes or shoes that I know I won’t be fighting for a few months to feel “right” wearing. No one should have to deal with that when wearing shoes and it amazes me how women put up with it for the sake of fashion/style/their ego/prettiness/looking like that girl/ etc…. Hell, men do it too. ANYONE wearing shoes that are uncomfortable – just stop it! You’re not helping yourself look awesome if you’re in pain!
  • I will burn any shoe that squeaks! Ok, so that’s a rage response, but still, if any of my regular shoes squeak when I go back to wearing them, they are OUT!

In the end, I will not be wearing the other shoe even though it is brand new because I don’t want to look at this pair of shoes ever again once I’m done with this one. I don’t think Vince shoes are for me or maybe I need to look at their more casual ones that might have bigger toe boxes. But they all have a lift right? Hmm… nope. Never mind. No Vince shoes.


Exhaustion and Star Wars

This week I’ve felt like sleep is something other people do and I only have the scant privilege of experiencing on occasion.


Tuesday: Everlane sweater and Sacai Luck pants.


Wednesday: Banana Republic top and Yohji Yamamoto pants.


Thursday: Everlane top and Brass Clothing pants.


Fri-yay: J Crew top and Grana jeans while drinking my favorite cocktail.

First and foremost, the cocktail in today’s photo:

Blackout Manhattan: 1 oz Rye, 1 oz Pims, 1 oz Averna – dashes of orange and walnut bitters with a dirty cherry.

I’ve made many variations of this drink. Today I used my husband’s bourbon because I’m out of Rye whisky. The “dirty cherry” is just a Bada Bing cherry, which you can get in a jar from the grocery store. It’s not one of those disgusting Maraschino cherries that taste like plastic. These are real cherries brined in syrup. Orange bitters are easy to find at most liquor stores and even some grocery stores, walnut bitters can easily be found on Amazon, which is where I got mine.

Also, I want to note that two blogs I follow had amazing posts this week:

Work from Home Wardrobe – Navel gazes and I found myself nodding: It’s as issue that aging women all deal with but rarely talk about. I want to hear from more women about this. This also had me thinking: what the hell does “aging gracefully” even mean? Discuss.

Dr It Girl  – The misogyny of minimalism – I was fist pumping about this. It’s SO TRUE.

This week I’ve feel pulled in twenty different directions. Finish shopping for the holidays, get house prepped for 2 weeks of guests, social engagements, work being… WORK and then some…

Wednesday night after dinner I was driving around to stores for a few things thinking the crowds wouldn’t be bad. Wow was I wrong. Anyway, I was standing in line at Macy’s to get a few gifts and a couple near me were also buying gifts and the woman asked if I found really soft PJs because she saw me looking in the same stacks they were. Then she and her husband were trying to figure out if they bought enough just to use a 15% off coupon and realized they didn’t so she got upset and said that holiday shopping was nothing but a racket to make people buy more junk. I smiled at that and enjoyed their bantering on the subject. She was overjoyed one minute at finding a nice present for her daughter but then cursing holiday shopping the next minute. Holiday shopping really brings out extremes in people.

Last night the hubs and I met up with a group of friends to go see Star Wars. Non-spoiler-very-generic-review: it was good, but I felt it didn’t throw the emotional punches it could have to make it great. The dialogue had me wondering if they got Lucas to write parts of it (that’s a sarcastic way of saying it felt very stilted). There was a lot of comedy in it as well that felt a little out of place – like it was trying to be a Marvel movie. In general I did enjoy it a lot and was glad I got to see it opening night. I know there are lots of people who hate movie crowds and such, but some movies really are better when you experience them with a large crowd of like-minded fans who all “AHHHHHH” and “Awwwww” and gasp and cheer at the same time. Mark Hamil does a lot of voice-over work and is famously known for his Joker voice he’s done for the Batman cartoon series for so long ( and all the video games – Arkham Asylum, etc..) so when I first heard him on screen all I could think is: the Joker is a Jedi! It took me a while to adjust and hear him as Luke Skywalker instead of waiting for a cackling laugh a la Joker style.

Wash, Rinse, Repeat

So I didn’t mean to go silent for two weeks, but I ended up being insanely busy. And when I wasn’t busy I was relishing in the few moments I had to do nothing. I did take outfit photos and looking at two weeks worth of them was really eye opening. I wear the same stuff over and over. I always knew that, but seeing it in photos really drove home the face that I don’t have a huge wardrobe at all. That’s not a bad thing. It’s simply an observation.

Mondays for the past 3 weeks. Latest photo taken today. I won’t bother writing what the items are that I wore because all of it has been worn before with one exception that I’ll get to in a bit:


Wednesdays: This is where I wear something NEW. Last Wednesday I wore a new pair of pants I got in the mail (second photo below). They are from Sacai Luck 2014 runway (I think) and fully lined solid wool beauties. Yes, the liner comes up to a funky drawstring above the waist button. It’s quirky and I like it and these pants are insanely warm and comfortable. I will be living in them this winter.

Thursdays: Oh look, both Thursdays I wore the Sacai Luck pants again. I meant it when I said I’d live in them.


I really do wear navy and black 90% of the time, don’t I?

Seeing these outfits like this makes me realize this blog might be pretty boring to look at for outfit photos since I tend to wear the same thing over and over.

In between these weeks have been two weekends. The first was an insane marathon of bathroom painting hell. The paint in our main bathroom was chipping and I tried sanding it off while I was unemployed, but just made a splotchy mess. It was going to take a LOT more work. I got maybe 25% of the walls cleared and then gave up. Since my relatives will be staying with us for the Christmas holiday we realized we really need to get that bathroom in shape. Saturday we scraped and sanded the rest of the walls. It took all day. The husband and I took shifts scraping and sanding while the other recovered from arms turning into jello. Sunday we sanded more (mostly to even out the spackling we’d done at 9 pm the night before) and then painted… and then cleaned. And finally at 7 pm Sunday night the bathroom was normal again and our arms had fallen off and we were exhausted and crying that we needed a weekend from our weekend. Monday I was a wreck. I didn’t bother doing my usual exercising again until Wednesday and even then my arms were screaming at me: why do you hate us! as I did chin ups.

But now at least the bathroom looks nice. Because the tile in there is awful 1950s salmon with black trim we kept the walls totally white. The grout is white in the tile so it looks somewhat decent that way. We also got a new shower head, light fixture and shower curtains. Everything is white except that awful tile and it looks nice and bright, but I feel like a vampire being blasted by the sun each morning when I get ready for work.

This past weekend I did nothing. Both days I spent lounging on the sofa playing games or catching up on anime. It snowed Saturday and neither the hubs nor I felt like doing anything and relished a well-earned break. We did get a Christmas tree last Friday night and decorated it Saturday while it snowed, but that was the extent of our sloth-like weekend of relaxation.

Black textures


Monday: Everlane sweater, Brass Clothing pants, Shoe: Vince.  I don’t think I’ll ever stop wearing blue and black together. Remember the old saying that navy and black don’t go together? Well, screw that. That combination is my favorite. Anyway, wearing a new Everlane sweater since my red lux one got a big hole in it. This one feels a bit more substantial and I like the tight crop neck on it. The sweater is cropped a bit, but I like it that way. The sleeves do feel a bit long, even for a small.


Tuesday: striped linen long sleeve tee – Yesstyle, Uniqlo pant, Land’s End cardigan. Oh hey, it’s my old favorite cardigan again that doesn’t really go with anything but I wear it with everything regardless.


Wednesday: Everlane sweater; Yohji skirt/pant, (Girlfriend Collective workout leggings on underneath). This was my favorite and most comfortable outfit of the week. It’s hard to tell in the photos but I really liked the texture combination of the washed out black cotton sweater with the black velvet with linen trims. The suede on the Vince shoe for another texture plus. Wearing my workout leggings on the days I need to workout really helps kick my butt into doing so when I get home.

In general, I wear a lot of black in the winter months, so I think I need to change up the textures more so I don’t look like a black hole.

I didn’t take photos for Thursday (Thanksgiving) or Friday. I wore the same outfit both days and it was just jeans and a sweater. We had the hub’s immediate family over for the holiday so it was very casual and small.

Yesterday we put up our xmas lights outside. This might be the last year we do the roof line lights because the hubs is much more afraid of being on the roof than he realizes. I always have to play the psych doctor and positive-talk him through the whole thing and then give him gentle, explicit directions on how to get down.

I’m trying to up my exercise days now that I’m wearing the boot and I can’t do my barbell squats or dead lifts or weighted lunges. Ugh. I kinda failed this week, but I’ll just blame the holiday (yeah I know it’s really my own fault) and get back to it next week.

I also caved in and got Animal Crossing Pocket Camp. I can’t resist the Animal Crossing games. Pocket Camp is really cute and the graphics are amazing compared to the 3DS games. I prefer playing it on my iPad though instead of my tiny phone screen.

pocket camp

Here is my ID if anyone else plays it and wants to add more friends.



Crying (inside) for the next 4 months

This week flew by incredibly fast.


Tuesday: Sweater – Halu Maybe from Yesstyle; pants – Uniqlo; shoes – Lems.  This sweater is the best winter sweater I own. I love it. When I spread out my arms I look like a giant bat. The hubs calls this my flying squirrel sweater. The turtleneck on it is massive. It’s so long that if I unfolded it all out it would engulf my whole head and flap over my entire face – it’s that big. There’s a tie string for the turtleneck, which is actually two layers. There’s a black layer and an inner grey layer so you can wear it either way. I usually wear the gray out and tuck the tie string under. It’s a cheap, fast fashion buy from one of those huge fast fashion websites and it’s one of the best purchases I’ve ever made. I live in this sweater in winter.


Wednesday: Shirt – Yohji Yamamoto (Everlane long sleeve tee underneath for warmth); pants – Brass Clothing; shoes – Lems. This was not a good day. I was late to work due to a dramatic story revolving the alarm clock and the husband. As a result, I was thrown off all day and felt stressed out. At least I looked nice. I took this photo right when I walked in the door so I’m covering up my ID badge I hadn’t taken off my pants yet. Everyone has to wear an ID badge because it has a fob for door access to various parts of the building. Some people have more access than others, depending on department. I’ve never worked some place like this so it’s a bit weird. I’m always afraid I’ll forget my badge each day. I try to keep it in my purse when it’s not on me so I  know where it is.


Thursday: Everlane mock neck shirt under an Everlane cotton sweater; pants – Uniqlo; shoes – Allbirds.  This sweater is a few years old and hasn’t really aged well. It’s comfortable, but it’s very flimsy and I feel like it looks too frumpy now. I bought a new Everlane cotton sweater and got it this week. It’s the mock neck cropped one. The cotton is much more substantial so hopefully it’ll last longer without looking bad. In general, I’m finding that Everlane clothes don’t hold up over time nearly as well as I thought they would.  The tees are ok, but the sweaters have been misses so far. The red lux one I wore twice last week got a hole in it so big I can’t wear it anymore. friday

Friday: Sweater – J Crew; jeans – Grana; shoes – Frye. I really like this sweater. It’s thick and comfortable. Since I cut all my hair off I’m constantly looking at turtleneck everything to keep my neck warm. I’m not a huge scarf person so turtlenecks are my only option.



For the next 4 months (roughly) these Vince shoes will be the only ones I wear with any and every outfit. Why?

effing boot

Because this shit is happening again. After trying to wear the soft brace for several months I’ve come to realize it’s not going to work at all and I need to wear this damn immobilization boot again. I. HATE. IT. This will be round 3 in this annoying thing.

I’m not messing around anymore and dead serious on getting the tendonitis under control. Also, I still want to punch the doctor I spent near $200 on for visits half a year ago. “Oh, you’ll only need to wear it for 3 weeks and then taper off for the 4th”. MY FUCKING ASS! People who deal with tendonitis – if you go to a doctor, then double, no – TRIPLE the amount of time they tell you to wear an immobilization boot. It’s the strongest tendon in the body and it also takes the longest time to heal of any other tendon in the body.

I’ve read ALL the things about tendonitis I can find online and message boards and everyone says the same thing: most doctors underestimate the healing time. Also, most of them don’t give patients a good idea of how long to do recovery exercises (let alone what kinds they should be doing) BEFORE they can start their regular exercising again. This is how my condition became chronic and I’m sick of it. I was never given a proper gage for when I should do certain activities so I wouldn’t risk tearing the tendon again.

So outfits be fugly for the next 4 months because I’ll be wearing this boot, but whatever. I want to run again.