Hodgepodge

Friday

Friday: Everlane long sleeve, Fantasy Linen tunic, Grana jeans.  I had to wear green to work on Friday (I technically didn’t have to, but I figured I’d at least look like I cared even though I didn’t – it’s better than not attempting to be a “team player” at all…. right?)

It was so incredibly dark Friday morning. I was surprised Z didn’t get up to exercise. He grumbled and hid under the covers. Walking downstairs felt more like 4 am than 7:30 am. Why so dark? Oh right, massive rain storm the entire day. Although I left early, I was still late to work because no one was capable of driving without hitting something. So many accidents all over the place.  Everyone grumbled about the rain. At least it’s not snow. Considering the time of year, this downpour would’ve equaled almost 3 feet of snow. I’ll take the rain, thanks.

I left work late and a coworker for second shift asked people where they lived so he could tell them if their routes were flooded. He and I live in the same direction and he shook his head, “No good, road closed at the overpass due to flooding.” UGH! Then I remembered I had to go buy cat food anyway, so taking a detour didn’t sound so bad. That was before I ended up sitting at the same light for 10 solid minutes because 5 cop cars, one fire truck and two ambulance cars (all staggered over the 10 minutes and 6 light changes) made moving impossible. I got to the vet half an hour later (it normally takes 10 minutes max) and then choked when I saw the bill: $125 for a case of prescription wet food and 17 lb bag of prescription dry food. Well that’s a big expenditure I wasn’t expecting this month. I blame Bento for this. I love the stupid, demonic cat, but he’s got urine crystals so he must have prescription food. And because Yuki would end up stealing his food (since it’s better quality) we feed it to both of them.  I shake my fists at why pets are so expensive and then stop myself: well, last least we don’t have kids to worry about. Correction: our pets ARE our kids.

The rain starts up again. I finally get home and hobble out to the car twice because I can’t carry all the items (work bags and cat food) and keep my balance on this boot at the same time. Half a minute later Z shows up. It’s nearly 6 pm and he orders Indian for us (Thank you Uber Eats! We can now get our beloved Indian food whenever we want!). Meanwhile, we grab beer, he snaps my outfit photo as I’m taking off my security badge and we melt onto the sofa. It’s been a long, draining week for both of us. Post dinner down time: 4 hours of Zelda.

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My desk where I’m currently writing. I’ve got several papers I need to sort. I just got a Jury Duty summons *head*desk*.

I’ve been thinking so much about saving money. The freshness of the new year and determination keep me going right now. The only expense I’ve had all week is that cat food, but I always put it in context of what’s spent out of the month. I don’t spend much money at all during the week, but end up doing “chunk” expenses all in one go at one point during the month – usually weekends towards the end. So the cat food was a “chunk” expense I wasn’t expecting so soon. I also noticed utilities were taken out this week and the electric/gas was pretty high. That was expected due to the holidays and company.

My end goal is for my credit card bill to only reflect necessities for at least one month. I’m trying to zero it out of discretionary expenses. Then I’ll be able to better budget out my discretionary expenses each month and not let it get out of hand. All bills are directly taken out of my bank account and it’s easy to track them since I get email notices every month. I’ll admit the cat food is a necessity, but it was one I hadn’t even considered before now and need to budget for. The dry food will last upwards of 9 months, but the wet we buy every month. So it needs to go into the monthly bills section.

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Huge doll on my sofa in my study. This was on my Amazon wishlist for so long I forgot about it and then was shocked to get it for Christmas this year from my MIL. Isn’t it cute? The little green/beige pillow is full of pine needles and smells like a tree. 

I do have things I want. Items are in my Amazon wishlist for later. One will possibly be used for all outfit photos in the future. Not sure yet if I’ll do it, but the idea seems fun and a way to make the posts more entertaining – if only for myself. I’ll wait until I’m out of the boot before I get it. So I have something to look forward to and when that time comes around (2 months from now) if I still feel excited about it then I’ll purchase the item.

There’s also this site with all things gorgeous! Thanks to Talia I now have another site to obsessively swoon over and “window shop” (screen shop? is that better term for this?). I was good about only limiting myself to Totokaelo and Rosen (where I buy most of my Yohji stuff), but alas, now I have a new site love. Check the pretty:

 

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DYING! This outfit screams ME!
teal
Outfit color goals. Also, long cardigan goals. I love that teal color too.
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Another straight up JEN OUTFIT. I could actually already pull this off with my Yohji pants, but I’d need a new top. I’m digging the gold shoes too.
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Silhouette goals. This is very Audrey Hepburn-ish I think. Not sure what I’d do about shoes though because I have hobbit toes and ballet flats really don’t work for me. 
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Avant-garde pant love. These are hella expensive.

 

Exhaustion and Star Wars

This week I’ve felt like sleep is something other people do and I only have the scant privilege of experiencing on occasion.

tuesday

Tuesday: Everlane sweater and Sacai Luck pants.

wednesday

Wednesday: Banana Republic top and Yohji Yamamoto pants.

thursday

Thursday: Everlane top and Brass Clothing pants.

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Fri-yay: J Crew top and Grana jeans while drinking my favorite cocktail.

First and foremost, the cocktail in today’s photo:

Blackout Manhattan: 1 oz Rye, 1 oz Pims, 1 oz Averna – dashes of orange and walnut bitters with a dirty cherry.

I’ve made many variations of this drink. Today I used my husband’s bourbon because I’m out of Rye whisky. The “dirty cherry” is just a Bada Bing cherry, which you can get in a jar from the grocery store. It’s not one of those disgusting Maraschino cherries that taste like plastic. These are real cherries brined in syrup. Orange bitters are easy to find at most liquor stores and even some grocery stores, walnut bitters can easily be found on Amazon, which is where I got mine.

Also, I want to note that two blogs I follow had amazing posts this week:

Work from Home Wardrobe – Navel gazes and I found myself nodding: It’s as issue that aging women all deal with but rarely talk about. I want to hear from more women about this. This also had me thinking: what the hell does “aging gracefully” even mean? Discuss.

Dr It Girl  – The misogyny of minimalism – I was fist pumping about this. It’s SO TRUE.

This week I’ve feel pulled in twenty different directions. Finish shopping for the holidays, get house prepped for 2 weeks of guests, social engagements, work being… WORK and then some…

Wednesday night after dinner I was driving around to stores for a few things thinking the crowds wouldn’t be bad. Wow was I wrong. Anyway, I was standing in line at Macy’s to get a few gifts and a couple near me were also buying gifts and the woman asked if I found really soft PJs because she saw me looking in the same stacks they were. Then she and her husband were trying to figure out if they bought enough just to use a 15% off coupon and realized they didn’t so she got upset and said that holiday shopping was nothing but a racket to make people buy more junk. I smiled at that and enjoyed their bantering on the subject. She was overjoyed one minute at finding a nice present for her daughter but then cursing holiday shopping the next minute. Holiday shopping really brings out extremes in people.

Last night the hubs and I met up with a group of friends to go see Star Wars. Non-spoiler-very-generic-review: it was good, but I felt it didn’t throw the emotional punches it could have to make it great. The dialogue had me wondering if they got Lucas to write parts of it (that’s a sarcastic way of saying it felt very stilted). There was a lot of comedy in it as well that felt a little out of place – like it was trying to be a Marvel movie. In general I did enjoy it a lot and was glad I got to see it opening night. I know there are lots of people who hate movie crowds and such, but some movies really are better when you experience them with a large crowd of like-minded fans who all “AHHHHHH” and “Awwwww” and gasp and cheer at the same time. Mark Hamil does a lot of voice-over work and is famously known for his Joker voice he’s done for the Batman cartoon series for so long ( and all the video games – Arkham Asylum, etc..) so when I first heard him on screen all I could think is: the Joker is a Jedi! It took me a while to adjust and hear him as Luke Skywalker instead of waiting for a cackling laugh a la Joker style.

Wash, Rinse, Repeat

So I didn’t mean to go silent for two weeks, but I ended up being insanely busy. And when I wasn’t busy I was relishing in the few moments I had to do nothing. I did take outfit photos and looking at two weeks worth of them was really eye opening. I wear the same stuff over and over. I always knew that, but seeing it in photos really drove home the face that I don’t have a huge wardrobe at all. That’s not a bad thing. It’s simply an observation.

Mondays for the past 3 weeks. Latest photo taken today. I won’t bother writing what the items are that I wore because all of it has been worn before with one exception that I’ll get to in a bit:

Tuesdays:

Wednesdays: This is where I wear something NEW. Last Wednesday I wore a new pair of pants I got in the mail (second photo below). They are from Sacai Luck 2014 runway (I think) and fully lined solid wool beauties. Yes, the liner comes up to a funky drawstring above the waist button. It’s quirky and I like it and these pants are insanely warm and comfortable. I will be living in them this winter.

Thursdays: Oh look, both Thursdays I wore the Sacai Luck pants again. I meant it when I said I’d live in them.

Fridays:

I really do wear navy and black 90% of the time, don’t I?

Seeing these outfits like this makes me realize this blog might be pretty boring to look at for outfit photos since I tend to wear the same thing over and over.

In between these weeks have been two weekends. The first was an insane marathon of bathroom painting hell. The paint in our main bathroom was chipping and I tried sanding it off while I was unemployed, but just made a splotchy mess. It was going to take a LOT more work. I got maybe 25% of the walls cleared and then gave up. Since my relatives will be staying with us for the Christmas holiday we realized we really need to get that bathroom in shape. Saturday we scraped and sanded the rest of the walls. It took all day. The husband and I took shifts scraping and sanding while the other recovered from arms turning into jello. Sunday we sanded more (mostly to even out the spackling we’d done at 9 pm the night before) and then painted… and then cleaned. And finally at 7 pm Sunday night the bathroom was normal again and our arms had fallen off and we were exhausted and crying that we needed a weekend from our weekend. Monday I was a wreck. I didn’t bother doing my usual exercising again until Wednesday and even then my arms were screaming at me: why do you hate us! as I did chin ups.

But now at least the bathroom looks nice. Because the tile in there is awful 1950s salmon with black trim we kept the walls totally white. The grout is white in the tile so it looks somewhat decent that way. We also got a new shower head, light fixture and shower curtains. Everything is white except that awful tile and it looks nice and bright, but I feel like a vampire being blasted by the sun each morning when I get ready for work.

This past weekend I did nothing. Both days I spent lounging on the sofa playing games or catching up on anime. It snowed Saturday and neither the hubs nor I felt like doing anything and relished a well-earned break. We did get a Christmas tree last Friday night and decorated it Saturday while it snowed, but that was the extent of our sloth-like weekend of relaxation.

Crying (inside) for the next 4 months

This week flew by incredibly fast.

thursday

Tuesday: Sweater – Halu Maybe from Yesstyle; pants – Uniqlo; shoes – Lems.  This sweater is the best winter sweater I own. I love it. When I spread out my arms I look like a giant bat. The hubs calls this my flying squirrel sweater. The turtleneck on it is massive. It’s so long that if I unfolded it all out it would engulf my whole head and flap over my entire face – it’s that big. There’s a tie string for the turtleneck, which is actually two layers. There’s a black layer and an inner grey layer so you can wear it either way. I usually wear the gray out and tuck the tie string under. It’s a cheap, fast fashion buy from one of those huge fast fashion websites and it’s one of the best purchases I’ve ever made. I live in this sweater in winter.

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Wednesday: Shirt – Yohji Yamamoto (Everlane long sleeve tee underneath for warmth); pants – Brass Clothing; shoes – Lems. This was not a good day. I was late to work due to a dramatic story revolving the alarm clock and the husband. As a result, I was thrown off all day and felt stressed out. At least I looked nice. I took this photo right when I walked in the door so I’m covering up my ID badge I hadn’t taken off my pants yet. Everyone has to wear an ID badge because it has a fob for door access to various parts of the building. Some people have more access than others, depending on department. I’ve never worked some place like this so it’s a bit weird. I’m always afraid I’ll forget my badge each day. I try to keep it in my purse when it’s not on me so I  know where it is.

wednesday

Thursday: Everlane mock neck shirt under an Everlane cotton sweater; pants – Uniqlo; shoes – Allbirds.  This sweater is a few years old and hasn’t really aged well. It’s comfortable, but it’s very flimsy and I feel like it looks too frumpy now. I bought a new Everlane cotton sweater and got it this week. It’s the mock neck cropped one. The cotton is much more substantial so hopefully it’ll last longer without looking bad. In general, I’m finding that Everlane clothes don’t hold up over time nearly as well as I thought they would.  The tees are ok, but the sweaters have been misses so far. The red lux one I wore twice last week got a hole in it so big I can’t wear it anymore. friday

Friday: Sweater – J Crew; jeans – Grana; shoes – Frye. I really like this sweater. It’s thick and comfortable. Since I cut all my hair off I’m constantly looking at turtleneck everything to keep my neck warm. I’m not a huge scarf person so turtlenecks are my only option.

 

vince

For the next 4 months (roughly) these Vince shoes will be the only ones I wear with any and every outfit. Why?

effing boot

Because this shit is happening again. After trying to wear the soft brace for several months I’ve come to realize it’s not going to work at all and I need to wear this damn immobilization boot again. I. HATE. IT. This will be round 3 in this annoying thing.

I’m not messing around anymore and dead serious on getting the tendonitis under control. Also, I still want to punch the doctor I spent near $200 on for visits half a year ago. “Oh, you’ll only need to wear it for 3 weeks and then taper off for the 4th”. MY FUCKING ASS! People who deal with tendonitis – if you go to a doctor, then double, no – TRIPLE the amount of time they tell you to wear an immobilization boot. It’s the strongest tendon in the body and it also takes the longest time to heal of any other tendon in the body.

I’ve read ALL the things about tendonitis I can find online and message boards and everyone says the same thing: most doctors underestimate the healing time. Also, most of them don’t give patients a good idea of how long to do recovery exercises (let alone what kinds they should be doing) BEFORE they can start their regular exercising again. This is how my condition became chronic and I’m sick of it. I was never given a proper gage for when I should do certain activities so I wouldn’t risk tearing the tendon again.

So outfits be fugly for the next 4 months because I’ll be wearing this boot, but whatever. I want to run again.

Grunge

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Tee: Grand Teton Nat’l Park. Flannel shirt: Uniqlo. Jeans: Grana. Shoes: Lems Nine2five.

I guess I was channeling my high school self with this sorta 90s grunge look. Two week old chipped nail varnish and all. I knew I was going to do a bit of much needed cleaning around the house, so I put on clothes I wouldn’t care if they got dirty or messed up.

While cleaning my new shoes arrived. I’d ordered Lems Nine2five shoes because while I like the Nisolo shoes, they aren’t going to cut it with my tendonitis. I may consider selling them. I did want to get a black casual oxford-ish shoe though and so I decided to try Lems.

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I’d actually bought these shoes in one of the brown colors around a year ago, but returned them. I ordered them in the recommended size for my foot (I’m a size 8 so that meant I got a size 40 according to their chart), but they were way too big. I wear a size 40 in the Primal 2 and they fit perfectly, but with the Nine2five my heels were slipping out and the ends made me feel like I was wearing brown clown shoes. I looked at the site and 40 was the lowest size they had at the time, so just returned them. This time, I decided to go with black and they have sizes as low as 35 on the site now. I bought a 39 (which correlates to a size 7-7.5) and they fit great now. I don’t feel like I’ve got on clown shoes and my heels don’t slip out. I really don’t get Lems sizing at all. They say their charts are different for Nine2fives/ Boulder as compared to Primal 2, but when I look at the size I should be wearing – it’s the same size for all of them? I knew that wouldn’t work, so I’m glad I went with the size below. If anyone is interested, I’d recommend getting your normal shoe size (according to their chart) for Primal 2 and then size down one for the other (leather) kinds.

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One of the shoes (left) may look funny in the pics because I am wearing my ankle brace for my tendonitis. I deliberately got Lems because I knew I could wear them comfortably with my brace on. They leather is soft and the shoes easily allow for extra room all around. They do provide a little more structure and less ground feel than Primal 2. I wore them while cleaning most of the afternoon and can tell I’ll be wearing them a lot. No break in time needed. Also, the black ones I think look a bit better in person than they do on the site (there they look really boring). I think they will work well for office attire as well. The only con to them is the short shoe laces. The laces also look rather bad and I might try to find nicer looking ones. I think it would help them look a little more office appropriate with better laces as well.

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Ankle brace on non-rolled up jean leg. The brace makes shoes look a little fat.