Weekend staple

Thursday outfit and all the silly things I keep in my study: Everlane top, Won Hundred pant, Lems shoes.

thursday

Z took this photo and wanted to get Yuki in the shot. The photo shows more my collection of manga and animal crossing figurines than anything else.

Friday: Grana tank, Banana Republic denim shirt, Y’s pant, Adidas shoes.

friday

While I don’t always wear jeans on “casual Friday” or dress casually in the way many do for the office, I always make sure to wear comfy shoes whenever I can.

Sunday: Yosemite tee, Uniqlo linen pant.

post hike

This is a post-hike photo. Z wanted to go out to a park so we went to one of our stand-bys and it was crowded. However, we tend to meander off into the woods on the less taken trails – or rather trails that no one uses anymore and are so overgrown and full of mud no one in their right mind would bother hiking them anymore. Yep, that’s how we roll. We both came back with muddy shoes and pants.

Weekend usual: cotton top from Yesstyle and Ys pant.weekend

I wore this outfit all day Saturday and put it on again after I showered when we got home from our hike. Who knew lightweight wool pants would become my summer staple. I seriously love these and want to wear them all the time.

I’ve spent several hours catching up on Accidental Icon posts and finally remembered to add it in my regular blog list. I really like the weekend links she posts.  And I’ve decided I want everything from Margaret Howell’s Autumn ’18 collection.

Also, I made a very expensive shoe purchase and am anxiously awaiting my precious to arrive. Unlike clothes, I tend to have a longer running relationship with shoes. I wear them down and they have holes and stains and tears and all manner of scars on them by the time they are retired. The slippers in the above photo are a perfect example. There’s three holes in them right now but I can’t be bothered to buy new ones because I haven’t found any others I like yet. So when it comes to buying shoes, I don’t feel so bad splurging because if I like them enough I know they will be The Ones I wear until death. I’m still wearing the Lems shoes that are cracking because the leather is cheap. They are comfortable and an easy black shoe to wear so while they aren’t doing my outfits any favors I still wear them. Chalk it up to laziness in a way, but until I find the right replacements I keep almost hate-wearing my old shoes. I’m leaning more towards quality now in shoes versus easy wear, especially since I have an ankle condition to consider. I can wear my Frye shoes and they don’t bother my ankle at all so it is possible for me to wear good shoes that look nice and not be worried about my ankle getting all lumpy by the end of the day.

All the same

Tuesday: Yohji Yamamoto top, Won Hundred pants, Eileen Fisher mules.

thursday

This is the last of the new-to-me three YY items I’ve bought recently. Nothing overly ground breaking. A simple cotton short sleeve mock neck top. Not only am I starting to embrace more white in my wardrobe (at least for summer anyway…), I’m really enjoying buying second hand items like these. I could’ve easily gotten something similar that’s brand new and easily cost 1/3 of the price I paid for this top. However, it’s the quality that makes this worthwhile. This cotton is like the black tank and my turtleneck. I love it.

The greatest difficulty this week has been dressing for two kinds of weather, daily: Office and Summer. The office is freezing and I occasionally have to go outside to thaw out from the AC chill. So far, this summer has been stifling hot with so much humidity it’s hard to breathe outside. So I’m frozen indoors and turn into a puddle outside.

Thursday: Everlane top, Issey Miyake pants, Eileen Fisher mules.

Friday

Friday: 45rpm top, Grana jeans, Jil Sander shoes.

friday

Looking at this outfit, no one would know it was 90F outside. That’s how bad the AC chill in the office has me covering up. It’s ridiculous.

Saturday: Knock Knock Linen top, Grana jeans, Adidas shoes.

 

saturday

After the Friday night thunderstorms, the weather chilled out and Saturday was gorgeous. I’d hurt my back somehow exercising and was cursing myself for doing so because Saturday would’ve been perfect for doing much needed yard work. Instead, we drove out to our favorite orchard and bought several pints of blueberries and apricots. We always get lots of blueberries and freeze half of them so we have some to eat throughout the winter.

Afterwards, we went to a nice restaurant for lunch and then headed to the Bowman nature preserve. It’s a gated area people pay a fee to get into, but it’s got lots of hiking trails and has lots of information on local wildflowers and plants. They sell local plants they grow in the area and have a full visitor center with an education center and mini natural history museum. The hiking trails are short, but really nice and being in a completely forested area makes hiking there much more comfortable in the summer.

We hadn’t planned on going here, but I’m glad we did and our Saturday spent outside was more enjoyable this way than weeding than the yard.

All done with the nothing

drink

Tonight’s drink: Filibuster – rye whisky, lemon juice, maple syrup, egg white, black walnut bitters. It’s basically a whisky sour but with maple syrup instead of simple syrup. I subbed black walnut bitters for Angostura because I wanted something a bit drier.

 

 

Wednesday

Wednesday: 45rpm shirt, Yohji pants.

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Thursday: Everlane sweater (over Everlane long sleeve), Rachel Comey pants. friday

Friday: Banana Republic top (J Crew tee underneath), Grana jeans.

Every day this week I’ve worn Girlfriend Collective leggings underneath all pants/jeans. It’s been cold.

Late Wednesday the Comptroller for the company asked me: “So, do you have the Business Development Budget 2017 form filled out? Um… the what what? So after some digging around looking for a file he told me to dig up on the network drive, there it is – the budget – that hasn’t been updated since July….

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Fuck.

Yeah, so that’s not done. I had no clue I even needed to update it and apparently neither did the last two people who held this position before me! YAY, guess who gets the fucking annoying task of updating it all now when I have zero time to do my regular work to begin with because it’s the beginning of the month? Ugh. It’s ok. He’s giving me time to work on it, but I swear this has become the status quo lately. I finds out about x,y, and z things that apparently fall under my duties but NO ONE informed me of so I could keep track of it and build it into my schedule to work on. *head*desk* I’ve been trying to get it done, but of course several other larger and more pressing things needed to be done ASAP so it’s now getting bumped to next week. Depending on how Monday looks with my client reports I might be able to knock it out soon or I might be working some late nights.

So in other news… it’s February. *blink*

January flew by and was so busy I didn’t have much time to think of spending, but here’s some numbers:

Discretionary spending this month: $36.75 (1 affogato – $6.75 and two special event movie tickets for Mary and the Witch’s Flower- $30.00)

Unexpected charges that should generally be put into my budgeting, but I never think of until they happen: $31.79 – oil for oil change in my car (my husband actually does the oil change himself) and vet hospital: $125.44 – wet and dry prescription cat food (expensive little buggers!).

That’s it. All other shopping was groceries for meals we ate, which was $285. I buy groceries half the month and Z buys for the other half. We both alternate the smaller grocery runs for little pick up items after the two large grocery orders. I was thinking I’d be ok to buy a few things by February, but now I honestly can’t think of anything I need or want so I’ll wait and maybe see if I can get through February without spending much either. I’m curious what my expenses and credit card statement would look like after another month of very lean spending.

Z and I both lamented the horrible, busy week we’ve both had at our respective jobs. Hence my need for a cocktail and he immediately grabbed his favorite beer when we got home.  He told me throughout the day at his work, a video was constantly being played to cheer people up. This is an oldie and a total ear worm. You have been warned! If you don’t want ear worm do not watch I’m a Kitty Cat. (Or enjoy your ear worm and smile a lot.)

 

Auuuuugggghhh

You know that sound Charlie Brown makes, when he tries to kick the football and Lucy steals it away at the last second? He lets out a yell and you can tell it’s a mixture of frustration at what happened, but also knowing it was going to happen anyway? That’s been my week thus far. And it’s only Tuesday!

Tuesday

Sweater from Yesstyle, Grana jeans.

Boring outfit is boring – in photo. My boss actually complimented me on it and was shocked I was wearing jeans. I wondered what rock he’d been under.

I completely forgot to take my outfit photo yesterday. I’m still stressing out a little over the changes happening at work and yesterday I got home and immediately changed into workout clothes without thinking. I was halfway done with my workout when I remembered.

I’ve been having a lot of those, “wait…..what?” moments. This whole month I’ve been good about not spending any money (just a couple movie tickets and an affogato) and I kept saying to myself: Ok, don’t spend until February. Then I’ll look at my credit card balance and check if my predictions for discretionary spending were on target so I can set up a proper budget for shopping. And before I knew it, it’s almost February and I’ve not had two minutes to really think about spending because I’ve been so busy. Plus, I’ll need to reassess my expenses again because this month saw me being offered a 20% raise and new position. Wait… what?

I’ve been a nervous wreck the past week and a half because I knew this was coming. It’s not as if I wasn’t prepared for it, but A) this is a whole new set of responsibilities that I really need to step up my game for and B) my new numbers would affect my choice of benefits program now that I’m eligible and the deadline is February 1st – hurry the hell up, where is my paperwork, BOSS!? (No worries now, got it taken care of – finally.) My biggest worry currently is being properly trained. When I first started working for this company, I had someone sit with me and teach me everything. Now, I’m having to scramble and search for the information myself. I do have plenty of help from some people, but the main ones who could train me best are the busiest and already being pulled in 20 different directions. I’m trying to do what I can with what resources I know I have right now, but it’s still very piecemeal.

One of the directors told me she’s really glad I’m doing so well and I’m very much needed there. She said I’m a “go-getter” and I corrected her. I’m not a go-getter at all. There’s nothing I want to go get at the company and if it came down to that, I’d probably fail. However, I have a good work ethic and sense of responsibility. If I’m going to be paid well to do a job, I need to make sure I’m proving that it was worthwhile to put me in that position. That is what I’m afraid of most – not being able to prove that I’m worth what I’m being paid to do. I’ve worked at plenty of places where I’ve been severely underpaid and know that I should demand more for what I’m doing. Now, I’m in the opposite position of being given a lot more than I was expecting and it’s making me panic, wondering how I’ll get the information I need to do the job well. My new position is very similar to other ones I’ve done in the past. It’s essentially customer service work. However, before I was mostly working in retail. Now I’m working for a corporation where the “customer” is another company and losing one of them could mean losing tens or hundreds of thousands of dollars instead of just a couple hundred or a couple thousand. I understand that the amount of money I’m being paid correlates to the amount of responsibility I have to keep these customers happy because of how much they are spending with our company. But it’s all still very new to me and I think my little freak outs lately are keeping me centered and anxious to do as much as I can as quickly as I can.

I don’t even know if what I just wrote makes sense, but it’s cathartic to write it out. Z just asked if I want to play more Zelda and my attention span and focus for this post just disintegrated. When do I want to play Zelda? ALWAYS.

 

Stress

Wednesday
Everlane sweater, Yohji Yamamoto pants.
Thursday
Everlane tee, Limi Feu sweater, Grana jeans.
Friday
Uniqlo flannel, Land’s End cardigan, Grana jeans.

This has been a week.

Wednesday was my 3 month review with my boss and we officially discussed my changing roles. Basically, his department is severely understaffed and he’s been nudging me (ok, more like throwing me in the deep end of a pool, which he finally admit to) to move into it as customer service support. To his credit, he asked me what I was interested in doing and was willing to listen to me. If I didn’t want it, he wouldn’t push any more and go hire someone. He’s totally fine with my staying in the admin role and only helping him out with one client. However, I do have a long history of customer service in my resume and know what he’s setting me up for. The only major hurdle for me is understanding the software program so I can get the answers I need in a more timely manner. I also knew going into this new role would mean a rather large pay raise. I admit I was much more interested in a different area of the company, however, I also recognize how much the company needed a customer service role right now and although it’s not my favorite area, I can do it.

We discussed my transition period and my receiving dedicated training and take on more clients – until we find my replacement for the admin role. After that I will go full time (I think the title would be Customer Liaison, but I’m not sure) into my new role and handle more accounts.

After that meeting I had some time to do work and we had another meeting with the client I’ve been working with over the past month.

Thursday I had a meeting with our marketing company. The woman I took over for in the admin role is on maternity leave, but her coming back now is a 50/50 coin toss as far as I’m concerned so I’m preparing myself for having to take over marketing as well for the time being. I spent the rest of the day Thursday looking through the software program and asking everyone in engineering about operations.

Today I was a little busy this morning but by noon I didn’t have much to do and the general stress of the week finally let go and suddenly was so drowsy I couldn’t stop yawning and had a terrible time staying awake.

I’ve been full on exhausted all week. I don’t sleep well during the work week because I have sleep anxiety. I must be in bed by a certain time because my mind then does a count down of how much time I have left before the alarm goes off and it sets a mini panic mode in me. So sleep during the week is generally bad and then I crash on Friday and Saturday nights. The added stress of having my review and knowing I’m transitioning into a role with many more responsibilities over the next couple months has wreaked havoc on me mentally. It’s not a bad thing, but more like stressful excitability.

I’m one of those people who always look for the end game and I’ve already been looking at the logistics of what the major problems areas are in the company that pertain to my role and how I can overcome them. To a degree, this may mean trying to work around/over someone who has been in the company for a very long time because to be frank about it: he’s fucking shit at his job and his duties are crucial to many areas of the company as a whole. Everyone complains about this guy and he’s been moved from one role to another just to get him out of the way and put him in an area where he’s the least destructive. Why not fire him? Well…. that’s a whole can of worms I can’t get into but let’s just say certain people are bound by familial connections and those connections demand this asshole be take care of.

Aside from this annoyingly huge obstacle, most everyone else I’ve worked with and will be working more closely with in the company has been beyond amazing. This is the most corporate company I’ve ever worked for and I wasn’t expecting much, but I’ve been bowled over by the amount of help and support I’ve received. It’s truly awe-inspiring that so many people will stop to answer my questions and never complain nor chide me or tell me to go get the answer elsewhere. I’ve never been in a work environment where everyone truly supports each other so much. I hate to use the term family because I’ve always found that to be cliche and ridiculous since not many people really talk to each other outside of work, but while in the office, there is a close-knit togetherness that is truly endearing.

I don’t know if I’ve mentioned it before, but I work for a medical component manufacturing company. The components we make are used in surgery for spine and joint support/correction. I mostly work in the office, but there is a factory connected to the business office and every employee is required to wear PPE (personal protective equipment): safety glasses and non-slip shoes. I have a pair of non-slip clogs I put on occasionally when I need to hand out paperwork to the people on the shop floor or find out a status of part production. I do take off my boot for the times I go out on the floor, but in general I hand off stuff to other people I know will go out there. Many of them don’t mind at all and know I’m trying to stay off my leg while I’m wearing the boot.

As my new role progresses, I might end up sharing office space with people on the shop floor since that’s where I need to find out the most information for the clients.