Polyester loving non-minimalist

I’ve had a really bad couple of weeks. I’ve been physically ill to the point of being bed-ridden from sinusitis and then had an emotional and mental blow regarding and ongoing family matter. I am depressed and hate 99% of all human beings. I want nothing more than a mass genocide of all the stupid people on this planet, starting with the ones directly responsible for the state my family is in right now. Line them up at the firing range and make them apologize for their waste of space on this planet and use of human resources. My rage on this matter is white hot and I’ve been barely keeping it together.

I won’t go into details on the matter, but suffice to say the US justice system is broken and beyond repair. I have zero faith in anyone anymore. There is no power of the people when the people are mindless, worthless sheep. Those responsible for this mess are getting a lighter sentence than the innocent people deemed guilty – by bias – which isn’t allowed, but here we are. My family is still fighting, but this has crippled us to the point where my father said the only thing keeping him in this country are relatives. That means jack shit to anyone reading this, but to me – that’s fucking incredible and means he’s been emotionally and mentally destroyed by what’s happened. We all are.

I thought about deleting this blog because my depression has been so severe, but part of me knows I need some sort of outlet.

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I wore the two new pairs of pants I got last week a lot. The first pair is from Won Hundred and is predominantly polyester. They are the cropped pants in the photos. I love them. They are comfortable and I wore them all weekend. They took the place of jeans for me. The material is soft and has a sheen so they look more charcoal grey than black. The weave is really nice and they don’t really feel like polyester pants at all. I am seriously glad I got them. The second pair are the Black Menace Pant by Rachel Comey and I’ve worn them twice. They are a viscose blend and feel more synthetic than the Won Hundred pant. They are long and shiny looking and seem like a much more stereotypical polyester pant than the cropped ones. They also wrinkle much more than expected, but I can live with that. I do like these pants as well (worn above/today). Both pairs fit really well into my wardrobe.

One thing I realized with the two latest pant additions was that I’m not afraid to buy synthetic materials if I know I’ll be using them a lot and already both pairs have seen repeated use. Both are wonderful warm weather pants to wear, which seems odd considering they are black and not cotton or linen. I prefer synthetics for warm weather because I feel they serve me better than cotton. A lot of people talk about how much better cotton “breathes”, well….. I think otherwise. In general, I’ve had much better experience with synthetics for breathability in clothing than cotton. Think about it – why are so many workout clothes made with tech wear, aka synthetics? Because it breathes and lets the air in while still providing a good barrier to the elements. I know that plenty of people will disagree with me and of course give the argument that cotton is better because of x, y, and z reasons, but I honestly don’t give two shits.

I know that synthetics work for me and I use them – regularly. Here’s a fun fact: I don’t own any cotton underwear. Ok, so that’s not entirely true – my underwear is maybe 3-5% cotton at most, but it is predominantly nylon with a little spanx. I tend to overheat a lot at night when I get warmed up and anything cotton on me ends up being a sweaty mess. That’s true for during the day too like if it’s really hot outside or if I’m super stressed about something and get the stress sweats. I stay dry much better in nylon than any other material.

Now that I have a ridiculous amount of pants, I feel like I can focus on tops because I’m realizing how much I’m lacking in that area. Shoes will probably be next, but I’ll get to that in a bit… I am now laughing at myself from how I was 3 years ago and KonMari’d my belongings. True, I got rid of things I didn’t like, but now I’m buying a lot more I love. I’m honing in more on what I want and yes, I want a lot of things. I’m nowhere near the minimalist I thought I would be and I’m ok with that. I like clothes. I like having more options than I need and I won’t feel bad about it.

The one time I wore jeans this weekend was to sit in the dirt in the yard and pull weeds. I thought about how jeans were made to be work pants originally and that’s what they were doing for me then – being clothes I wear when toiling and getting dirty. Now that I have a much better collection of pants to choose from, I can delegate jeans to the areas where they really prove their worth – yard work.

Linen shirt

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It’s casual Friday and I wore my new linen shirt and YY pants. I think I gave up on the idea of just wearing jeans on Fridays and just wear whatever I want whenever I want any day of the week now at work.

I did iron this shirt last night, but linen, so it’s very wrinkled now and that’s ok.

I ordered this from Knock Knock Linen on Etsy. I’ve had the shop in my favorites shopping list for a while now but never knew what to get. I decided an easy button down would be best and this is technically a “mens style” button down shirt. I am wearing a small, but it does look big on me. They have standardized measurements to choose from for their clothing, but one could very easily give exact measurements for a more personal fit. I think this is a little bigger than their standard size but I do like the bagginess of the shirt. I ordered the color Natural Flax in mid-weight linen. This feels just as substantial as my PdE pants. The linen is thick and soft and drapes wonderfully. The collar and cuffs have double buttons and the buttons themselves are very pretty as well. The linen of this shirt is not woven as finely as my PdE pants so there are a few bumps and tiny stray tufts here and there, but those add a nice bit of charm. The stitching is well done. This shirt bought as-is has a breast pocket but I asked them to make it without and they said it was no problem.

The only problem was the wait time. The description said 3-4 weeks. I ordered this shirt on March 10th and got it two days ago. After 5 and a half weeks I msged them to find out when it would ship and was informed they were behind schedule and would expedite the shipping by Fedex. The lack of communication on their part to tell me it was running late was a little annoying, but the shirt is very nice so I’m not too upset about it. Total cost for this with shipping was $136. Was it worth it? Right now I do think so.

I should mention one odd thing and that’s the shirt yoke seems like it was made to show more in the back than sit on top of the shoulders. I noticed that when I was ironing the shirt, but it hasn’t bothered me at all while wearing it.

Having another thick linen shirt makes me wonder if ES linen is thick and substantial like this KKL linen or my PdE linen. Can someone take a close-up photo and show me? I really want to see the texture of ES linen closely. In general, I’ve never really liked the look of ES tops because they seem too much like sacks with armholes. They also look very cropped and I don’t like the idea of my mid section showing when I raise my arms. I like that I can customize whatever size I want with KKL. Granted, the wait time is similar to ES right now, but having my shirt custom made means a bit more to me value-wise for that wait time. I’ve read more than once people waiting a long time for ES clothes just to be disappointed with the fit. KKL does have the hippie/peasant look going on, especially when you see the harem pants and their color scheme, but knowing they are willing to customize so much means a lot.

Pants

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I think I have a pant addiction. It used to be running shoes, but since I won’t be running for a while my new thing is to obsess over the cut and style of pants. I just bought two more pairs before writing this post – both black (of course). I know a lot of people who just wear the same pants over and over and over with different tops. Maybe I’ll do the reverse where I wear one top constantly and change out the pants. That sounds very amusing to me, but I’ve also had a Scotch. Last minute meetings and coworkers blowing up at each other made for an interesting day at work.

What clothing addictions do you have? Any specific kind of item? Silk shirts? Cardigans? Shoes? Socks?

I also bought another pair of barefoot style shoes that look more professional than the ones in the top photo. I like the Lems (above) but something about them feels too casual. Maybe I just need to change out the shoe laces. I don’t really like them. Also, I already need to buff the EF shoes because I’m wearing them so much they are scuffing a lot faster than I realized. They are also really soft leather, which doesn’t help. I did get a compliment on them today though.

We are seeing Infinity War tonight with friends. It should be a lot of fun. I’m not a hardcore Marvel fan, but I like the movies because they are good action films and seeing them with a bunch of friends in a full theater makes it even more fun.

I like black

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The weather was cooler today so I broke out the YY turtleneck again. I love this. I’m also really happy with the Gwen Slide from EF I bought. They’ve been getting milage and look a little worn in already. They are super easy to change in and out of my non-slip clogs at work.

Drinking wine as soon as I get home. It’s been that kind of day. Instead of whinging about work, I think I’ll post pretty things instead – pretty black things.

I’ve been browsing some sites lately and noticed I always look at the designers. Do you ever look at an item and think, “oh, that’s nice” and then look at the designer and change your mind and move on? Do you have designer bias? I think I do, so I went and looked at a few sites and only looked at the photos and noticed I gravitated towards black items. When an item was black, I didn’t have a designer bias as much, so maybe my bias is towards black?

During my lunch break, I read Talia’s post on her “neutral” color. Her neutral color is close to her skin tone and that makes sense. I get the idea of how a color similar to whatever skin tone one has can be considered a neutral. I’d never considered white a neutral color before, but I guess it does fall in that category. Something about white felt too stark and contrasting to me because unless one is extremely pale, white can be quite striking.

I think my neutral color has always been black. Not because it matches my skin tone (it doesn’t at all!) but because it goes with everything. It is a harsh neutral no doubt, but I feel it’s neutral because it is safe – at least to me it feels that way.

Anyway, here are some black items that have caught my attention. All are from YY’s various collections.

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It’s been so long since I’ve worn hats! I used to always wear a hat in high school. I was that weird girl who wore a velvet maroon hat with a vintage German military jacket. You know the type – style is everywhere and nowhere at once.

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I took a photo of this plant because I am really proud of myself for keeping it alive. This plant might be my regular update plant where I need to take photos to remind myself I can take care of plants and my green thumb isn’t dead.

Freak outs and being human

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Last week I made a bad shoe decision and freaked myself out big time about my ankle. I’ve been on an emotional roller coaster again because of it. I’m so completely and stupidly stubborn.

Thursday and Friday of last week were actually kinda slow for me. The earthquake that was the huge ordeal with one of my clients was over and now we are dealing with a few remaining tremors – getting product out on time. I left work early on Friday and instead of exercising I went straight to bed and slept.

I did remember a few funny things that happened last week. There’s been a firearms safety session going on because management freaked out about something. I was offered to join in the “lunch training” meeting, which meant we sat around eating food and not really training at all.

Coworker (jokingly): So, welcome to the training session for firearms. Do you know how to handle a firearm?
Me: Yeah keep the safety on and point the gun downwards at all times.
Coworker: Wrong, you wear gloves… to hide finger prints.

We all had a laugh and ate lunch.

Sometimes I think about how much food is such a driving force for interaction in our world. We base a lot of our schedule around eating and actually watching other people eat can be a gruesome experience, depending on the person. But we still do it because we need to and sometimes I feel mechanical about how we must refuel so many times a day. It’s funny to think of myself as being robotic in how I need to refuel. If I were a game character I’d need a green energy bar (food) and a battery energy bar (sleep).

During lunch we talked about foods we like and which ones “don’t like us” so to speak. For the record, I don’t like bananas and I’m allergic to fresh figs and goat milk and mussels.

Around half hour after lunch I watched another coworker go towards the bathrooms. She opened one door and barely had a foot inside it before she came stumbling out, shaking her head. She saw me watching from down the hall and we both burst into laughter. She had been at the lunch meeting as well and we knew: someone bombed out the bathroom. She went into the other bathroom and I remembered I’d heard some rather…unpleasant noises coming from the bathrooms earlier. I wondered if the coworker who said he can’t handle onions had onions in his sandwich.

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This weekend was really nice outside. We drove to a park on Saturday and the trail was so uneven Z gave me a piggy back ride so I wouldn’t hurt my ankle.

On Sunday the weather was warmer so we packed up a picnic and went to another park. A family friend gave us a fancy picnic backpack – like a picnic basket. It’s been 3 years since we’ve been married and this was the first time we used it. We stopped at the store to buy cheese, crackers and fruit. I was drinking jasmine tea in the silly plastic wine glass. The backpack does have a wine bottle opener and insulated areas for cold foods.

It was really nice to see the trees blossoms at the park and smell freshly mowed grass. It does feel like spring is finally here.