Full Disclosure: I have had a couple glasses of wine. It’s been that kind of week. Navel gazing or weird tangents may show up in this post.
First of all, thank you Michelle, Lori and Kaya for your kind comments. It truly is amazing how the kindness of strangers can help lift my mood or remind me that yes, there are people out there aware and reading and thinking of me in some way and despite my troubles, lack of posting, or whining – still want to hear from me. That means everything to me right now. It also motivates me to keep posting. When I got the comments in notices on my phone, usually before I’d leave the driveway for work each morning this week, they almost brought me to tears. So, Thank You.
Another thing bringing me to tears right now is the fact that our grocery delivery this week really fucked up our order and instead of getting us poblano peppers we got large green chili peppers that I cut up for dinner tonight – thinking they were poblanos – and then ended up touching my eyes with chili-oil-infused hands. I am all sorts of red-faced with swollen, burning eyes at this moment.
I’m sure there is a level of Dante’s Hell that I could equate to this week, but I’m not sure which one at the moment. Work has been a disaster because my main client’s products are all running late and none of them are being made properly. I feel like I’ve been talking to brick walls (aka management) about a lot of the problems and I’ve been constantly running around the shop floor demanding answers that everyone is too ambivalent to give me. Or they pass the buck and blame someone else because there’s no hard proof that it’s any one specific department to blame. Ugh.
Aside from that I’ve been dealing with severe back pain. It’s been on and off for a while and I alluded to health issues in my last post. They are still ongoing. I don’t know if it’s a pinched nerve or something more severe, but the back pain has been crippling me. I can only lay in one position at night to sleep, even after taking pain pills or muscle relaxers. I can hardly sit down for over 20 minutes at a time in my work chair, but when I’m lounged at home in a specific spot I refuse to move because then I know my back will hurt. I can stand, which does help, but then the pressure of standing for too long also gets to me. I just feel broken in general. I’m still also dealing with the lower hamstring tendonitis in my right leg.
Even though I’ve been exercising this week I don’t feel like I’ve gotten anywhere with helping or alleviating the pain, so I made a doctor’s appointment for this coming Tuesday.
This weekend Z and I will plan a vacation for this year. It’s been a few years now since we’ve taken a proper one. We held back because we both started new jobs at the same time and either didn’t have the time to take a proper vacation (me, building up time off) or because we were too busy (usually Z’s case). He recently found a site that has an easy guide to several southwest national parks and he’s been wanting to see those for a while. We normally lean towards cool, mountainous, waterfall-filled, green parks like Rainier, Yosemite, Grand Teton, etc… but we now we are ready to see other landscapes. For this upcoming trip, which may be October, we want to hit up several parks: Zion, Bryce, Grand Canyon, etc… We may not do the extensive hiking like we normally do, but prefer to see one main attraction in each. If anyone has any recs, we are all ears/eyes.
That will be the bulk of this weekend along with cleaning the house, my finishing some paperwork for dad’s estate, and generally hibernating indoors. We were supposed to get lots of snow, but now it seems more like a sleet/rain mix and deathly cold temperatures. There will be lots of hot chocolate and Zelda: BOTW playing once all chores are done. Please tell me what you are all up to.
This week’s outfit photos (new rug in study where I take photos), minus today, which was jeans, plaid flannel shirt and Blundies.