Burned

Saturday I went to work and checked on a couple guys who were working on prototypes for me over the weekend. I figured that if the parts are going to be late, then I’d rather know what’s going on with them than be surprised Monday morning. By Monday only one part was done, so we shipped it and finished the others today. Luckily, my client is ok with it all. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted.

Sunday I spent almost all day working in the yard. We have huge holly bushes out front that attract a lot of bees in early spring. I really don’t like how big they are, but don’t want to pay to have them taken out entirely. So I trimmed them down almost to the ground, weeded one of the two flower bed areas with the bushes, and put down mulch. It’s ok if they come back and if they do, I’ll be sure to keep them trimmed and short. I also want to put a couple other plants around them. I’m hoping to weed the other area soon-ish. Our front yard looks a bit weird now with only one side mulched and nicely weeded while the other side looks like a disaster area. I wore a sleeveless shirt Sunday and was in direct sunlight most of the day. Despite putting on a little sunscreen in the morning… you get the idea. I burned the shit out of the back of my arms and shoulders.

Monday outfit: Knock Knock Linen shirt and Won Hundred pants and Lems shoes. I needed a soft top for my burnt arms and back. This worked out well.

Monday

I went to the orthopedic doc today for a follow up. Recovery is slow going, but it’s going. I only have two PT sessions left. Because they are so expensive, I won’t get a script renewal for them. Not that I don’t like going, but paying $100/week is racking up my credit card bill fast. The guy I work with is great and he’s given me a lot of ideas on things I can do at home to improve. It’s been interesting how my Physical Therapy has been more like having a Personal Trainer. I’m wrecked by the time my hour is done. My hips are sore, my knees wobbly, and I look like I just ran a marathon, aka a sweaty disheveled mess. Due to all the strength training I do during my sessions I’ve pretty much cut out all home exercising with the exception of walking/running.  In fact, I got some new trainers today and I’d like to go for a run, but that might really be pushing it after PT….

Tuesday: linen top and Yohji Yamamoto pants and Eileen Fisher mules. I needed something easy again. I’m really feeling sore now from my burn.

These YY pants are one of the best clothing purchases I’ve ever made. I’m glad it’s not as hot today so I could wear them. They are solid wool, although the weave makes them tolerable to wear in slightly warm weather. The high today is 80 and I’ve been perfectly fine in them. I love how these pants balloon out at the hips and taper in. I get some high-water looking action when I sit and I like that too. I love the deep side pockets and the high waist with the notch in the back that you can’t see at all in the photos. These were the very first YY item I bought and have brought me down the rabbit hole. I’ve bought so much more YY since then and have more on the way. I’m also really glad I’ve been buying used items. Even though they are still pricey for being used, I’m ok with that if they are in good condition. I can’t afford full price, but I think it’s a bit better to buy these items used than just buying new for the sake of having something new from a designer. Isn’t it also a testament to the talent of the designer to make clothes that are timeless regardless of when they were made? I think these pants are from the early 90s but I’m not sure. In any case, these are forever pants.

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Look at how red the back of my ears are! I had no idea they looked that red!

Panic in 3, 2, 1…

Wednesday’s outfit: New (to me, but used from TRR) Ann Demeulemeester top, Rachel Comey Menace Pant, Chinese Laundry shoes (old).

Investor visit day. My shoes are wedges I’ve shown before, but you can’t really see them much in this photo. The Quality Director was wearing wedges as well that looked almost exactly like mine. Hers were from Target, mine from DSW. I told her I wore them to my wedding and her eyes bugged out, saying, “No way!” Yes way. My wedding was super no fuss and casual. I wore a black cocktail dress that I no longer have because I weighed 20lbs more back then and the dress doesn’t fit me so I donated it.

Anyway, this was my first time wearing the Ann D shirt and it’s super soft cotton that almost clung to me too much. It’s more suited to jeans than formal wear, but I made the outfit work for me. I’m also still torn between having the pants hemmed or not. They are very long and even with the wedge there’s a lot of extra pant hanging around the bottom. I kinda like that baggy, bunched up ankle look, but I’m not sure it’s the best option for office-ness stuffs.

Wednesday

Thursday: (no photo) I skipped because it was a PT day. I wore my Everlane white button down and green linen Uniqlo pants with my navy Jil Sander shoes. My boss stumbled backwards (literally because he’s a clown like that), confused because I wasn’t wearing black and commented on it. I guess I have a reputation now….  Anyway, the new admin we hired also wears black almost all the time and she thinks about things in the same way I do to a degree that is almost frightening. We laughed about that. She then said that it should be reassuring to know that she’ll get done whatever I tell her to do. I’m technically not her boss, so that was a little scary, but also slightly comforting. In any case, we get along really well and I’m glad she’s fitting in with the company.

Friday

Friday: Yohji Yamamoto day – wearing YY top and YY suit pants with Eileen Fisher shoes and obnoxious cat (Bento) in my way. Just look at the snarky glare he’s giving the camera. He’s such a turd.

I’ve been stress eating/drinking this week. Today was the last day of the investor visits. Now we see who bites – or not. We may be bought out or merged or whatever. It’s a rather frightening time, especially for the upper management. I don’t think I’ll have anything to worry about immediately, but I still don’t like the idea of losing my boss, who is VP. On top of that, the last prototype for my client is severely delayed. The engineers have been  having an insane time getting the part done right and the lab with a Super Famous Surgeon for these is due Wednesday at my client’s location, which is nowhere near here. The guys are working this weekend to get it done so I’ll be going in to work tomorrow for support. I’m not keen on the idea of just letting them work their butts off while I sit around and wait for the results. If the parts run ok this weekend then we can ship on Monday. Worst WORST case scenario, we get them done by Tuesday at the latest. If we manage to get them done that late, then guess who will most likely be on an emergency flight to the client to hand off parts and then turn around to fly back? Why? Oh well my boss will already be in another state visiting another client that day. *head**desk* This afternoon he told me to look into flights – just in case.

Never ever in a million years did I ever think I’d be working for a company that put me in these situations. This Is Not A Bad Thing. Seriously, this job is one of the best things that could’ve happened to me and while there’s a shit ton that’s wrong and messed up, there’s also a shit ton that’s amazing and fun as well – mostly the motley crew of clowns I work with. This job is the definition of bi-polar disorder. And yet… I know I can do it and handle it. It’s woken me up and made me sharper and think more clearly in many ways. Yes, it’s stressful as hell, but there’s a sense of fun even in that – for as masochistic as that sounds.

In the meantime, Bring Me All The Scotch while I freak the fuck out this weekend….

Because black

Monday

Monday: Rosen top, YY skirt/pants, Eileen Fisher slides.

The AC crapped out on the hottest day of the week. Luckily, I was still comfortable in my flowy linen top and skirt pants. It was very odd how the AC only stopped in some areas and I found out we have a lot of AC units. The front offices were hot, the post production area was frigid, the larger shop area was hot, but the smaller milling area was cold.

I also heard overheard this:

Coworker:  “I see everyone got the black memo today since we are all wearing it. I’m wearing black, and so are X, Y, and Z [coworkers]. Then there’s Jen, but she always wears black….”

I laughed a little at that and it made me all the more aware how comfortable I am wearing black in general. I seem to be accumulating more black items at an alarming rate as well.

tuesday

Banana Republic top, Pas de Calais pants, Frye shoes.

I wore a sleeveless top, thinking the AC might not be fixed, but it was, so I was frigid for the first half of the day. By late afternoon the AC was having trouble keeping up with the super humid weather outside and the temp started to creep up in the office.

I am still on the hunt for oxfords/brogues. Any recs? I still have the two I showed before on my list, but the Frye ones aren’t budget-friendly at the moment. I have check TRR and Poshmark, but not been impressed with the selection.

Reminder: malls are soul sucking

Thursday I was rushing out the door and by some streak of genius I remembered I had PT and needed to take an outfit photo in the morning. Once I get into PT clothes (workout wear) it’s game over for any nice outfit photos because I become such a sweaty mess. I completely skipped last week’s photos because of that. So I took a quick phone photo in the long mirror in the basement. I wore all blue: denim top, navy pants, navy new (to me, but used from TRR) Jil Sander leather sneakers.

thursday

This is what happens when I get distracted from what I want to buy. What I wanted, was a black oxford style shoe. What I bought was a navy leather sneaker (they are actually really comfortable and I’ve worn them all weekend) and an Ann Demeulemeester black button down. I failed, but also won at the same time because I really like both the things I bought, so… it’s a tie?

shoes

Friday I wore the JS shoes again (and again on Saturday at a house warming party). They are keepers. My elephant top is so beat up and there are runs all over it when you see it up close, but for some reason I can’t quit this top and that is high praise for it. It’s perfect for warm weather and I always get compliments on it. This was definitely one of those instances where fast fashion wins. friday

Today I went to the mall in search of a bathing suit. I bought two from Target a few years ago and the bottoms of the bikini one had a sort of skirt on it. It was so shredded I was kinda embarrassed to wear it recently when Z and I went lake swimming. I got rid of it as soon as we got home. I wasn’t planning another bathing suit purchase but the father-in-law got a hot tub for Father’s Day and despite it being 90F outside they want us to come over today to go sit in it and have BBQ.

I searched Bloomingdales and Macys and nearly cried at the selection, let alone the fact that my size is mythical (size 4). Bloomingdales only had swim suits for woman who want all of their ass showing and Macys only had swimsuits with ten thousand tags on them saying: Tummy Control! Slimming! Look 10 lbs lighter with this slimming silhouette! (I shit you not on the last one – that was actually written on a tag on a whole rack of bathing suits.) Basically every Macy’s suit was hardcore spanx meant to squeeze the living soul out of anyone who dared wear them – not to mention there were none in my size.

The only time my size becomes available in bathing suits is when they go on sale for the upcoming season – in fucking March. We had 4 snow storms in March so buying a bathing suit wasn’t anywhere on my agenda. But the fact is there are such a limited amount of the small sizes made that even if I went shopping earlier in the season, I’d still be hard pressed to find it. I went into one of the smaller Land’s End shops and an SA tried to help me. I told her finding my size was the hardest part and when I mentioned it to her, she actually grimaced and said, “Well…. there might be one….. somewhere….” I was looking for a two piece, but I don’t like tankinis, which is all they had, so I left.

I checked Nordstrom Rack, but that was also a let down and walked across the whole mall back to where I parked. I did notice something though – half the shops were closed. The particular mall I was at is kinda known for being the “better” mall of a few in a 40 mile radius, but it was really depressing seeing all the junk on display and so many shops closed up. It felt a bit foreboding like –  The End is Nigh for this one. I noticed Macys is doing a Backstage department now that’s sorta like Nordstrom Rack, but for really cheap stuffs that don’t sell regularly at Macys? I don’t know. It just felt like I was walking into an inevitable thrift store of crap no one would want even if it was $1.00.

I did end up finding a bathing suit at a sporting goods store near the mall. The selection was minuscule but it helped me focus on finding something and they actually had my size. I paid a bit more than I would have liked, but the material seems good and will hopefully last longer than the Target swim suits.

 

Don’t panic- but I wore a dress.

tuesday

dress

Can we just stop and marvel at the fact that I wore a dress….

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Ok, carrying on…

Tuesday: This is the YY pin-stripe dress part of the 3 piece suit I bought. During the morning hours I wore the jacket, but took it off once I got to work and was warm enough throughout the day that I didn’t need it. Not many took much notice of my suit from Monday, but oh-boy, they definitely took note of the dress. I was stopped by so many people I was shocked. Most of them had the same sort of comments: they liked the dress and it was weird/unique/strange. A coworker asked about the pocket on the back, which he noted was very impractical. The intern next to him said it was stylish and I said that’s just how the designer makes his clothes – weird. I mentioned a skirt I had I could wear three ways. When I mentioned I could technically wear the dress the other way around with the pocket in front, he looked at me with that: Does Not Compute expression. Mind you, he’s an engineer.

I loved wearing the dress, which really surprised me. It was incredibly easy to move around in and I could definitely see myself wearing it many more times. This shocked me more than anything else. It also helps that the dress is basically a zipped up bath towel in wool. The flap on the right side in the first photo is where the zipper is and I can literally zip the entire dress apart so it’s just one huge rectangle of fabric with straps buttoned on. It takes a little effort to get the straps straight when putting it on, but takes .02 seconds to take off. wednesday

Wednesday: nothing new to report here. Investors are gone, boss is at a conference and I’m panicking like crazy because prototypes for my client are running late and their lab with the parts is in two weeks. NO PRESSURE AT ALL!!!!