I have no idea what day it is


I threw on what was comfortable and warm for today. I couldn’t remember what day it was. It kinda felt like a Friday, but I was busy this morning like a Monday and a coworker thought it was Tuesday.

Even after Z shoveled 3 times yesterday – the last being at 8:30 pm – I still had to wipe off 3 inches of snow from my car this morning. We got a foot of snow total. Can we please be done with this nonsense? I’m also sick of wearing wool socks. My legs and feet itch like crazy because my skin is so dry and I put on wool socks to keep warm. Even my trusty favorite moisturizer can’t handle how weirdly dry this winter has been. Odd, that we’ve had an insane amount of precipitation, but the humidity levels overall have been one of the driest seasons on record.

I reposted the job description with some changes for the admin role we are looking for. We’ve had nearly 100 applicants and maybe 3 wrote decent cover letters and resumes. All the rest… yikes. I was hoping for better leads by putting a few more parameters on the job description, but this afternoon’s crop of resumes has me wondering why the hell I’m getting bottom feeders. Ugh. I know, that’s super harsh of me to say, but seriously, how many times can I read something along the lines of: I’m a dependable and honest person! without wanting to stab my eyes out. I don’t give two shits what these applicants think of themselves! I want to know their qualifications! IF they happen to add a glowing recommendation from a coworker who says yes, this person is dependable and honest – then great, but I’m not impressed when that’s the first line of a cover letter! It’s egotistical, stupid and NOT WHAT YOU WRITE IN A COVER LETTER. I suppose I should be lucky some applicants even wrote one – despite how awful it is – because even after making a cover letter a requirement for the application process, most of them don’t even bother or write stupid shit like “Great Customer Service Skills” and… that’s it. WHAT?!

The biggest WTF on these resumes though is the phrase “tech savvy”. WHAT DOES THAT EVEN MEAN? A coworker guessed it meant the applicant can use Facebook, which made me laugh. When the GM asked me what it meant I told him I have no idea and I don’t even know what era that phrase is from. He guessed the 80s.

I don’t even think I can say I’m looking for an admin anymore. I’m just looking for someone who knows how to write a fucking cover letter and resume. Period.

Z says I need to make Bad Application Bingo. Phrases on the card can read “honest and dependable”, “tech savvy”, telecommuting, secretary and “stay at home mom”.

Big, baggy aesthetic


2 posts, 1 day. Haven’t done that in a while.

This is today’s snow day outfit. It’s a Nike sweatpants outfit I bought for running outside a few years ago. More often than not, I wear either or both of these pieces for warmth in the winter.

I found a new outfit/clothing tumblr to fawn over in the same vein of Death by Elocution, but with a baggier look – fftdimg. For as much as I love the looks in DbE, I can’t help but think: I couldn’t pull that off because bare ankles mean cold ankles. A lot of the looks on DbE have the model in an oversized sweater, wool coat, slightly cropped trousers and some sort of spotless looking shoe. The looks are polished and while they look like real looks people would wear, I still think there’s that not-quite-within-grasp-without-looking-like-you’re-trying-too-hard / pretentiousness to them. I think a lot of that has to do with practicality and seeing such top-heavy looking outfits with bare ankles that would be cold instantly brings home the lack of realism in the outfits. The look is gorgeous, no doubt, and something to aspire to, which seems to be the point. I think it’s obvious the photographer knows these looks are more idealized than practical, but having that eye candy is inspiring. fftdimg is similar, but I noticed how the proportions are bigger, baggier, and pant lengths are definitely longer. Looking through fftdimg had me thinking: I can definitely wear that. No bare, cold ankles, but more of a polished throwback to the longer leg lengths of the 90s and early 2000s – without the grunge.



For as much as I love the cropped pant look, I can’t get past the cold ankles and this winter has driven home the importance of having ALL Limbs Covered All The Time. Maybe next winter will be different and I’ll be all over cropped pants. If I’m perfectly honest though, I think I’m more of a full-long length pant kind of person.

Someone call Spring, it forgot it’s due date.


Today is the first day of spring. We are expecting 5-8 inches of snow. We are not amused here and ready for this winter business to go away.

white shirt

This was Monday’s outfit with the new white shirt I bought. It got dirty, as expected, but I was right in how sturdy the material is and it can take a beating. I was a bit self conscious of the collar hitting my chin and possibly getting makeup on it, but it wasn’t as big a problem as I thought. Overall, I am glad I bought it.


Tuesday’s outfit: wearing the new Pas de Calais linen pants. These are extremely comfortable. It’s like wearing PJs because the linen is so soft. It’s also very thick. The weave of the linen gives it a herringbone look close-up, which I found really interesting and wondered if that had anything to do with how soft they are.

These are a size small and I wavered back and forth a lot on whether or not to return these for the extra small. These are a bit big in the waist, but there are side cinches to tighten it. When I do that, it bunches a little at the waist and so that made me wonder if I really am an extra small in size. I wore the pants on and off over the weekend and decided I’ll stick with the small and I’m glad I did. I cinched the sides when I first put them on, but ended up loosening them throughout the day and realized these are more mid-to-low rise kind of pants. They are meant to be worn a little slouchy. I can wear them at the waist cinched, but I ended up feeling more comfortable in them loose. These are the lowest style pants I have and since it’s been so long since I’ve worn lower rise pants I felt a little weird at first, but was completely fine by the end of the day. The small is in fact the right size for me because of the room I have in the thighs and hips. An extra small would be a bit snug there and I prefer the looser fitting. Once I got used to it and realized just how these pants are meant to be worn I was perfectly fine and do believe they are worth the price. Of course, I got an email from the PdC shop the following day about a basement sale of 60% off all items for this Friday. However, I think it might be only for in-store purchases and since the store carrying the brand are too far away from me (in NY) then I don’t feel too bad.

One other thing, the pockets are very low in these pants and are kinda weird. They bunch up oddly when I sit down because the pockets bulge out right at my hips when sitting, but I also got used to that. The side pockets aren’t so much for practical purposes as for just throwing your hands in, but there is a good sized back pocket that’s perfectly usable.


Over the weekend I bought some house plants. Waaaaaaaayyyy back when in college – don’t ask how long ago – I used to be the Plant Rescuer. Whenever friends had plants that were dying they’d give them to me and I’d take care of them and the plants would spring back to life. My apartment was full of plants. I don’t know if it had anything to do with the environment I was in then or not (I lived in OK at the time), but now I can’t save a plant to save my own life. Keeping plants since I’ve moved to the east coast has been quite the ordeal. Every place I’ve lived in has at least a ten degree temperature extreme on almost any given day. Currently, during the winter lows in this house can get down to 62F and up to 70F when the heat kicks on. If we wanted to keep the house more temperate we’d be paying a billion dollars in electrical bills. During the summer, the house still ranges from 68 to 80F. On top of that, the difference between the bedrooms upstairs and the basement is anywhere from 10-15 degree difference constantly. I know not a lot of plants can handle that kind of temperature swing on a 24 hour basis so keeping plants alive here has been challenging. I’ve had a little luck with succulents (barely), but I’m hoping having a pothos, which is almost impossible to kill, will help me gain my green thumb confidence back.

Lastly, kitty photos of Bento and Yuki because they were being cute and quiet (for once).


4 months, 1 shoe


For 4 months one shoe (right) has been on my foot and the other (left) has been in a box. Btw, the heel of the shoe above is falling off now at the very bottom layer.

I kinda knew I wanted to do a comparison post when I first bought these shoes. Ideally, I’d wear the one during boot time and then be able to wear both afterwards. That’s…. not so much something I want anymore.

I bought these shoes because of the platform on them. The shoe I wore allowed me to be evenly balanced while wearing the medical boot. I still hobbled about a bit, but at least I felt more stable being on the same walking plane.

To give an idea of just how much I relied on this shoe, here’s a breakdown of every day, including weekends:

  • Wake up, get dressed and put on shoe and boot.
  • Wear both all day at work with the exception of times I had to take off both and put on my non-slip shoes for going out on the shop floor. I tried wearing the boot once on the shop floor and terrified myself. I seriously thought I was going to fall and break both my legs.
  • Change into workout clothes on M, W, F and put back on shoe and boot to exercise in – I would take it off for doing push ups because the pointy toe end wasn’t very stable for that.
  • During evenings I’d put my feet up on the sofa or a pouf and only take off the shoe.
  • The only other time the shoe was off was during showers or at night when I’d wear a different brace to sleep in.
  • Weekends: wake up, dressed (sort of) and put on shoe and boot.
  • Again, only time I take it off when either lounging, showering or sleeping.

I lived in this shoe constantly.

Pros of this shoe:

  • It made me feel stable and more balanced.
  • It works well with the majority of my wardrobe.
  • It is easy to take on and off in a second, which is what I wanted.

Cons of this shoe:

  • The break-in period was awful. I’m not used to wearing shoes that pinch my toes together because I’d been wearing so many barefoot styled shoes beforehand. I feel as if I’ve cramped my toes together completely during these 4 months.
  • Wearing thick socks to keep my ankles warm was painful until the shoes stretched out a bit. This also goes along with the break-in period. Not good.
  • After the beginning of the second month a squeak developed in the forefoot area of the shoe and no matter what I’ve done it will not go away. The boot already sounds awful – like someone running around in a diaper due to the padding for my leg and all the velcro straps moving around. Adding a squeak to it on the other shoe has made wearing both boot and shoe highly annoying for me every. single. day. I made a joke with a coworker I’m the walking Squeaky Diaper and we laughed, but I think part of my anger and grumpiness is due to this damn squeak in the shoe.
  • It’s not great to wear in cold weather and has zero traction, just like the boot. I’m basically in ice skates during inclement weather. Big, cumbersome, annoying ice skates.
  • It’s also not warm at all, which is why I had to wear thick socks, but that just made the shoe more uncomfortable until I managed to stretch out the shoe, dealing with a lot of annoying pain in the process.
  • Expensive – I definitely got my money’s worth out of wearing the one shoe constantly, but I still feel a bit bitter about paying as much as I did for them and only wearing one out of the pair.

As I’m starting the tapering off period (FINALLY!) I don’t have much longer in this shoe and I’ve learned a few things from it.

  • I only like the look of platform shoes. I can’t wear them. I felt like I was tripping all over myself until I got used to it and it just wasn’t me. I know I’m not that tall, but I still need to be closer to the ground. I still trip over myself from time to time and it’s not the boot, it’s literally because of the shoe itself.
  • I hate break-in periods on shoes. This was a big reminder of why I’ve switched to barefoot style shoes or shoes that I know I won’t be fighting for a few months to feel “right” wearing. No one should have to deal with that when wearing shoes and it amazes me how women put up with it for the sake of fashion/style/their ego/prettiness/looking like that girl/ etc…. Hell, men do it too. ANYONE wearing shoes that are uncomfortable – just stop it! You’re not helping yourself look awesome if you’re in pain!
  • I will burn any shoe that squeaks! Ok, so that’s a rage response, but still, if any of my regular shoes squeak when I go back to wearing them, they are OUT!

In the end, I will not be wearing the other shoe even though it is brand new because I don’t want to look at this pair of shoes ever again once I’m done with this one. I don’t think Vince shoes are for me or maybe I need to look at their more casual ones that might have bigger toe boxes. But they all have a lift right? Hmm… nope. Never mind. No Vince shoes.



My increasingly casual outfits for the rest of the week. One could say they also show the progression of my mental and emotional status as well.

After all the work I did in hustling departments to get product out for today’s deadline the end result was 0. Nothing went out today, hence the double of Cardhu Gold Reserve single malt scotch in my hand in the last photo, which is today. As you can see by the outfit, I just did not GAF at all. I wore a long sleeve tee and jeans to the office. My outfit may or may not have been inspired by my watching lots of Jessica Jones lately on Netflix since her uniform is a black top and light wash jeans. I’m not entirely sure myself, I just knew I had to roll out of bed and throw something on that would get me through this crap day with as little fuss as possible. Everlane and Grana get props for this comfortable and extremely casual outfit.

On the good side, I got my white shirt from Everlane today and it is a keeper. The material is maybe not as thick as the men’s style, but still very substantial. The outline of my navy bra could be seen under it, but barely. I styled it a few different ways and realized it would work as a good offie shirt and as a layer. The only reason why is due to the nature of the fabric.

As my stress mounted this week due to the looming deadline and lack of information I was getting from people, I therapy shopped when I got home. Yesterday after work I also had a drink, sat down and put the PdC pants I’ve wanted into cart and paid for without batting an eye. Every day for the past two weeks I’ve been checking the site – not so much for a sale, but to make sure the pants weren’t going to run out of my size. That kind of panic finally struck me last night: Jen, just get the damn pants, price be damned. I can afford it. So those are on the way as well. Not that we’ll have any nice weather any time soon to make wearing linen pants necessary. The forecast for the upcoming storm has changed countless times, but in the end it went back to possible 5-8 inches of snow again from Tuesday night into Thursday morning. Ugh. The roofers are scheduled for Tuesday morning: yeah, right – I highly doubt it’ll happen and we’ll have to wait for a reschedule for another week. Plus, we still haven’t heard from the Hyundai rep about my warranty work and loaner.

I may be having another double of scotch tonight….


Sorry this is all doom and gloom, but it’s my life right now. It’ll pass…. eventually… I hope… or heads will roll at work.  I am actually excited about getting the PdC pants, but in light of today’s epic failure at work I can’t seem to muster much enthusiasm for anything.